♥

Hush

2011-12-29T14:36:00.001+08:00

Here we are again, I feel the chemicals kicking in
It's getting heavy and I want to
run and hide

Take a bite of my heart tonight.

crayons.

2011-11-11T03:07:00.001+08:00

"Don't be bothered about things that nobody can be sure of. "
Something inside me just wants to have that confirmation, even when I know it so damn well that nothing will lead me there.
Then it starts to make me unreasonable and seek for one's attention to fill up that hole...

"At least"
Is two words that successfully makes me feel :
No matter how bad the situation is, there's something which follows right after that two words that will make you feel better, but how much better can it be ?

Men will never understand women,
&
women will never understand men.

Find someone who doesn't fucking understands you,
quarrel over most fucking unreasonable things,
and making up without knowing how you all did it.

I've found someone.
Kind of like the feeling of just wanting to keep him by my side and act like a little child when I'm sick,
wanting all his attention,
and wishing those special moments would last.
Memories.
What I had in mind before wasn't anything like this,
it's amazing to be from :

unwilling to admit
to
doubting myself
to
scolding myself for being silly
to
admitting the fact I've changed for someone that I never thought I would.

Not that bad as I've imagined.
Actually I'm not so sure ...

With lots of love,
S.

...

2011-10-23T09:46:00.001+08:00

Cherish what you have because you won't know when you'll lose them.

Secret.

2011-10-21T14:23:00.003+08:00

This is for you.

I hate to admit that I'm actually in love, haha.
Reason being : I'm afraid to sacrifice what I'm not ready to.
Never ready to, because I don'tt want to lose everything and what's left to do is cry like a little girl.
It was the first time I ever ever lie down beside someone, observing his every little facial expression being asleep. Ya it sounds creepy now but it wasn't, ok.
I've never did that because none were worth it for me to do so.
I didn't think that I would be afraid to lose anybody,
until I had you.
It's that stupid feeling that I do not want things to change, I feel comfortable in this zone, I feel that I could give up everythng in exchange for your care and concern for me.

I know I have to let go, it's just a matter of time.
Forcing is meaningless.
I really know :D

Haha i'm laughing at myself like how I used to laugh at those naive girls so in love so in love and so emo so emo haha fuck

With lots of love,
S.

Unexpected.

2011-08-29T02:48:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii .
I've been jobless and useless for awhile now, i'm gonna have a job starting from thursday! hehehe.
Feeling happy, because I found someone worth it for me to do almost anything just to see him smile, getting all the attention I want, making me feel loved and cherished. I like how things are now, although how we started was a little bit complicated and me being retarded not seeing all the signs.. I'm just glad to have you ♥
Gonna drop by the mall tomorrow, get clothes and some bags probably. I really neeeed bags omg.
He will have to come with me but I'm expecting " okay " , " not bad " when I ask " nice ? " ...
Ya if you're reading this , you know I'm right hehehehehehehehe.
Uploading a new album on facebook , maybe read my book or watch sitcoms. I haven't finish scrubs and howimetyourmother damn it it's difficult to go back to finish them once you stopped that watch-it-everyday cycle haha.
Ciaossssssssssssssssss

With lots of love,
Sasha.

Sunday.

2011-06-20T03:06:00.004+08:00

I'm thinking how can I change after you told me all that..
It's not that you made comparisons.
I sort of did that on my own because I couldn't help it.
When it's so straight to my face that : Hi you just didn't and couldn't do it for him, and why ?
-BLANK-
Blank blank blank.
Even the littlest thing.
I don't exactly know how much you appreciate what they've done for you, but I know you do.
Not that I don't want to be the one that would do things on my own accord that would make you happy, I want to. They're so thoughtful in every single way while I'm the exact opposite.
I can't even be more patient, I won't want to be the same as them , but I want that kind of selfless mindset they have. Some sort ..
It's not hard to be with someone I love, but it's hard when I don't really know what he wants .. I don't have that instant understanding when things happen. I take such a long time that it might no longer matter to you.
All that pressure on you..
True, that I've always been dependent on my boyfriends.
But I really try to make a point that I would settle what I can, on my own.
It's all so stuck in my head that the feeling kind of suck after awhile.
This is totally not supposed to be offensive at all :(

Damn it sasha.

Truth.

2011-06-15T03:44:00.000+08:00

"Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies: Will they, won't they, and then they finally do and they're happy forever -- gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half the ones that get married get divorced, anyway. And I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff, I have not become a cynic, I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate-covered candies and, you know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, 'cause I do...believe in it. Bottom line...is the couples that are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but, the big difference is, they don't let it take 'em down."

Cupcakes.

2011-05-30T05:08:00.003+08:00

HI IM JOBLESS, again !
I'm going to find new job, collect my previous job's pay later or tuesday teehee.
I'm going to buy a new notebook, I want to buy a new camera or phone.
I'm going to be broke by then.
But what I care the most is , I have my lovely boyfriend by my side. Always .
Baby you're so precious to me , I won't say you cheap shot anymore ehehehe.
I just vomited a whole lot of shit and ate a pill , drank lots of fluids and I still feel like dying.
I'm need to text baby if I can't sleep .
But my throat feels spicy it's a bit gross to mention, but I ate curry .
And I got the mac' cup ! the first one !
I want the pink one ! 02 June - 08 June !
I love cups !
My boyfriend hates me for buying too many cups !
But he demand my barbie doll happy meal toy and we must buy a ken to make them a couple !
How wonderful .
Okay I need to sleep now..

And, you mean so much to me baby joey .
We just had the sweetest conversation just now hehehehehehehehe .

With lots of love ,
Sha.

I can smash anyone's face

2011-05-15T21:49:00.003+08:00

right now.

I do not want to know why because it doesn't matter to me anymore.
And yes, you know what ? I don't care what will happen next, I care nothing and nothing is going to affect me anymore, I have no intention of doing anything to even help me feel better.

Dreams.

2011-05-14T22:54:00.005+08:00

I've been having weird dreams as in ya a lot of dreams. There're sort of random stuffs, couldn't remember how it started and everything at the front. But I can remember the last part ! and it's damn insane : Joey and I were stealing from a vending machine.
And the vending machine don't look like the USUAL VENDING MACHINE WE ALWAYS SEE OKAY.
It's sort of like, those which sell snacks you know chips and stuffs like that.
But , the most bottom row has McDonald's burgers and ice cream for sale. And I remember seeing someone else in our queue buying this burger named : Chicago burger OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT I ONLY REMEMBER IT STARTED WITH C . and in the dream I was thinking to myself like , OH THAT BURGER. which I don't fucking know what oh that burger I was thinking about now because I have not seen anything like that and there's no Chicago burger, yellow wrapper, looked like mac chicken to me. Oh then , how Joey stole the stuffs was by putting his hands from the hole below that we collect the food then he can go all the way up to take the food! I have no idea how but it looked damn easy in the dream, and got 7-11 mash potato also ! So suddenly this, girl from the wall behind us came to us, angrily. She was wearing McDonald's uniform, then she was like : Stop taking food so fast ! I'm having a hard time making these food inside!
As I remembered, we didn't care ....... we just pretended to listen.
Then he stole so much that I had to go to Kiddy Palace , ya don't ask me why it's just that store to take plastic carrier. Then the Auntie there was giving me a face , like as if she knows that we were stealing food! Haha then in the end she gave me one, but got 3 sticker labels sticking on them, then she keep asking me to come back because she wanted the stickers back . I don't know what's happening at this point of the dream.
So anyway I went back to Joey's, then put all the food inside.. then I saw MCFLURRY suddenly in the vending machine. But Joey don't want , he say very rush no time bla bla bla then we went to the carpark ,im still sad by the way.. then while we were putting those stolen food in our car one girl came to talk to him.
I keep finding that girl very familiar, and it's my neighbour's daughter.......
She talk to Joey, then they started flirting! for fuck reason ! hahaahahahahahahahahahha, then ! I have no idea why I was still standing there looking at them... flirting... my neighbour had braces on last time, AND HOW I KNEW IT WAS HER - in the dream , is that I saw some of her braces still on her teeth .. like only SOME, means a few brackets there like that . If you think that is weird , get this : I still thought she was beautiful ... with a few stupid brackets in her teeth and a weird retainer that doesn't look like it will help the teeth.
THEN I WAITED TILL THEY WANTED TO EXCHANGE NUMBERS, and I was quite furious because she was hiding her identity she told Joey she was from his class or something, then Joey still seem to remember and agree so I was all the way " ?! " at the side..
I walked off in the end, having Joey to chase after me but............ he no admit he was wrong and I don't remember the rest of the dream anymore. Perhaps I was too angry that I just blackout in the dream, lol.

Oh and I keep having short , really short dreams when I fall asleep while watching tv. It's like, I close my eyes.. then I see a bind , white canvas one .. I was pulling it, pull pull pull.... then it dropped and covered my face, but there was no pain. I couldn't hear any sound from the tv anymore while all these is happening in my head, and I'm not imagining them ! Like dreams they just happen then I suddenly open my eyes and realised that I was dreaming.
Five minutes after that I fell asleep AGAIN, and this time the scene in my head was I was packing my laptop, my schedule book, and phone and stuffs I forgot, I was at the exact same place before I close my eyes, and i kept having difficulty packing those stuffs because everything keep slipping off. Then again, I opened my eyes and I had a little tiny shock for a moment because everything that is supposed to be there is gone, with my bill and my phone lying beside me. .

I'm going to like, sleep like say twelve, and wake up at normal human timing so I won't have these weird sleeping habits.. and I guess it's really scaring my boyfriend because after that weird sleeptalk thing that happened at his place , I scolded him for not understanding what I was furious about because I was talking to him about work , I keep saying someone took my message card away. Then he reply me asking what is that etc etc , okay skip all the asking and replying, he suddenly told me : Baby, there's no flowers here. Haha. I replied oh ya hor, right ... and I go back to sleep. And my cheeky boyfriend decided to ask me Do I love Joey? question , followed by Who else do you love ? And God blessed me, I only love him.

I'm a little tired now .........
Goodnight, and I hate people liking comments with my name on it that I didn't bother to reply. When I say people, generally it refers to PEOPLE, anyone-people , but it's actually just PEOPLE that I dislike.

With lots of love,
S !

Doubts.

2011-05-12T02:43:00.000+08:00

Update : I was one of the last to leave work today ! I feel so hardworking haha! Lijun was having a hard time with her pregnancy and all I can do is to help her lighten her workload. I find everything more and more manageable day by day, but there's still many things to consider before having the thought of quitting this job. Ah jia is quitting at the end of this month :c so depressing, nobody would smoke with me, eat with me anymore. Those aunties will start to bully me! Actually they already are doing so .... I still don't know what P can do to me yet .. God bless me. Meeting baby tomorrow night , its one of our last days before the 19 days- no - book- out thing starts.

~

I don't know if you or anyone would ever understand what I've gone through, it's not me who wants to be over-sensitive at times , not me who wants to made it as if you cheated on me. I have no idea how to explain all these , but who would tell me why must I go through all that before I met you? I would be a naive , and to a extent , stupid and clingy Sasha. But I was forced to become who I am now. I'm sorry for being suspicious over such things, but it do mean something when someone actually asked me if I was another girl on the phone.. It meant a lot actually. Would you be upset if my girlfriend mistook you for another man ?

From the start I never thought we would work out , honestly. Because of my past relationships, I've never trusted you enough at all , even from the beginning. I know this might be disappointing for you, but I've been able to tust you more now, bit by bit . I didn't care much about you, but now i do. It won't really bother me if you went out with friends of the opposite sex, because I will have mine too. I thought that this relationship had no strings attached , but I actually made that decision and changed the status of our relationship. We made changes for each other , & I appreciate what you've done for me . A lot , in case you don't know.

I will never accuse you of being unfaithful because I've never seen it, but what I feel is equally important, because I don't like how people judge you and the other person , I don't like how my status would be degraded in your friends' eyes. I don't like them to think that you're not hundred percent mine.

I need time. They weren't there for the past four months, and it's a bit hard for me to get use to things just like this. I know you would understand, I just don't want to set those rules for you just to make me feel happy, I have no intention of taking away your freedom. You know how, dramas always go, the male lead says that he will never talk to any girls, meet any girls again etcetera.. Obviously the relationship sucked. I guess you know what I mean.

What I want is very simple, I just need your assurance no matter how irritating I am , someone to care for me when I need him. Even if you're not here with me, a simple text message saying you miss me or you understand what I'm going through ,will mean a whole lot to me. I've never put in effort into any of my relationships because I've never wanted myself to get upset over any guy that weren't worth it. It was never too hard for me to let anyone go, but it would be hard for me to , if what I have to let go , is you.

I did not choose the easy way out. I want you to know that I've tried to salvage things between us , something which I've never done before. In the past, I was plainly giving them chances that didn't mean anything anymore so the relationship is as good as dead. But I am giving us a chance , I want us to work.
I love you, and I'll trust you as long as you ask me to.
You will never know how special you're to me, Joey Chan.

With lots of love,
S.

YAY

2011-04-30T17:23:00.002+08:00

SO LONG NEVER UPDATE MY BLOG ALREADY!
Anyway I got a job at FarEastFlora.com @ thomson !
Mother's day is coming, expecting a havoc in the office.
Got my first pay $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ come come.
My right eye is red and painful I feel so depressed .
I realised I've been making my Joey very unhappy, I feel so bad but I don't know how to make it up to him.

We're meeting tomorrow morning ! hohoho.
My eyes very painful I'm going to take a nap now!

Chippy chips logic.

2011-01-17T05:29:00.002+08:00

Hi . I'm back again . I found it troublesome to blog , took ages to come back but I'm back c:
So who missed my everyday-blogging habit ?! Actually it's not a very important question so all of you can put down your hands..heheheehehehehehehehehe.

Okay I had inspiration while munching potato chips today. It's a little weird but I just thought of it all the way from me craving for the chips, till I eat finish the chips.

Ordinary old boring tears-wasting logic :
When we are in a relationship we see the person almost everyday, when time is up we've broken up we spend time forgetting the other party. Some people succeed after that period of time, some people can't and still reminiscence about the past, like always. Some people get hurt again getting back with those bastards, some didn't so they've protect themselves very well or at least they tried to.

I want to protect myself but still be smiling when those memories come back to me.

In CHIPPY CHIPS LOGIC :
When we are in a relationship with someone, its like eating the same brand (we stick to the same brand because we, normally , would always be in love in one type of men "my type of guy" thing) of potato chips everyday. I mean same flavour as well...... When time is up, which is the fucking expiry date of that chips. We break up. So, we can either throw that expired chips away, or keep it and admire it ( I know what you are thinking, but there might be people who do that you just don't know them) so this is like deciding to forget or get stuck in the past, LIKE ALWAYS. So some people get stomachaches after trying to gobble that expired packet of chips, close to getting hurt. I mean your stomach do hurt right when you want to shit. Smart people either still choose to admire that stupid packet of chips, looking at them, thinking of how nice it tasted before but not eat them, or simply THROW them away, that's when you forget the other party totally and become stronger, yay.

I want to, and will finish them before that expiry date.

The chippychips logic looks longer, way longer. Unfair.
But life is unfair.. let's SEE WITH OUR EYES A LITTLE BIT FURTHER APART so we can appreciate more things in life in this way.

I'm going to announce something that I knew five minutes ago, and which is about to happen in five minutes : I'm going to sleep, goodnight cookies !

With lots of love,
S.

Polaroid !

2010-12-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE PAAPIIPOO.
I've been home a few days because of my infected eyes.
They cheat me go Changi Hospital A & E , say until my eyes so serious but actually its not so serious !! The doctor keep saying " As I say " totally irritated me and Steffi haha !

But he say it's like humans we will have flu , then now is like my eyes kenna flu like this.
Then nothing serious.. then I have to stay at home because so painful . I can't even look at bright lights and I CAN'T LIGHT CIGARETTE !! OMG TORTURING. but it's getting better..
Hope I will be able to go out of this house soon.. hehe.
Anyway these are the polaroids me and jiaxin took that day !
Uploaded on facebook too, but because I really got nothing to do.. so I post them here as well hehe. Tomorrow is sunday !
Any plans people ?! If only my eyes are fine..

I'm going to have some rest,
will be back again !
CIAO

What is left ?

2010-11-27T13:21:00.002+08:00

Hi it's rainingggggg now. hehe
Really nothing to do going to rot, maybe meeting leeyan later on !
I did mask and have been lying down since morning totally bored. Watching dramas online,
nothing much about facebook so dead. I think Saturday everybody sleeping like mad.
Was planning to meet baby jiaxin at night but I think plans shifting to Monday hehe.
I'm going to smoke a stick then , stick around till I meet up with leeyan or something.
Saturday night .... Where?!
Ciaos!

A few of my favourite things.

2010-11-24T04:24:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYBAAAAA-DEEEEEEE !
It's been fucking long right! Not the normal long but extraordinary long hehe.
For everyone who knows what happened to my cutie little boyfriend, good for you.
For those who don't know, good for you too :)
Sometimes its best not to know too much things because you don't know when it'll harm you.
Hmm, for now ! I've been spending my time with my really sweet friends like jiaxin and bapok steffi haha!!
Went bishan to take i.c photo with steffi , her face so funny but whatever its for a useless cause anyway. Met up with jiaxin here and there and now I'm with her :)
That night we took polaroid photos together damn fun, had a late night supper with her at orchard 24hours tcc because we didn't found the so-called 24hours starbucks as they assumed at plaza sing cb, liars.
I'm currently having fun with my baby jiaxin, but I'm not intending to let you all know what fun we're having hehehehehehehe. I'm going to update my blog more frequently I hope , because the last hiatus I had is really too long, don't want to lose any readers if i had any.
Good luck in whatever you all do , because I want to too !
It's 4:51am for whoever that is having fun , continue ~
For those who are sleeping .... don't sleep too long because you'll be missing many great things in life while sleeping like what I did previously.
F.y.i I've stopped school for awhile already hehe. But i'm deferring it so when I have the mood to study I'm going back to school yay.
AND I NEED A JOB, WHO HAVE ANY INTRO PLEASE TELL ME OKAY !
NO TIRING JOBS , BEST JOB IS I SEAT THERE AND GET PAID EVERY MONTH HEHE.
Night night everybody.
See you all soon , really soon ! Want to meet up with everyone that I've been neglecting.
Love you all so much ♥

I miss you

2010-10-17T14:39:00.003+08:00

HI APPLES.
Its like the fourth day already.
I have many magazines on my bed now haha! Later slowly read all.. Nothing special these days.

Without baby by my side, feel so weird. But time will pass fast i hope! :)
Was talking to Steffi baby on the phone haha weird things keep happening I realised. Totally freak her out.. Chatting with jiaxin on msn, describing colours. HAHAHAHA . Code roger.
Tomorrow got school.

SCHOOL.
SCHOOL.
SCHOOL.
OMGGG!

Destroyed my mood for anything when the word school pops up in my mind.
I just did a survey for someone else's pp.
Good news is I didn't do mine hahaha. Hopeless.

I'm going to relax myself and enjoy my Sunday evening, ciaos~

Good morning new york.

2010-10-06T04:44:00.002+08:00

Hi barbie dolls. I'm currently still awake at 4:46am and I know baby will scold me if he is awake.I told him at 3am I would go and sleep after I eat hahahahahaha. Sorry, I just felt like blogging.

Anyway baby if you are reading this, listen to what I say. I know you are frustrated like how I was, but believe me they just have nothing to do that's why. And whatever that happened proved to you that they have no brains. right? So don't think of whatever you told me because its very scary. Love you. hehe. We gonna go to the photoshoot tomorrow right? I wear nicer ok? hahahahahaha. You also wear nice nice, smart smart we take nice nice photos together.

These days my honeybun haven't really do anything to provoke me.... and I just wanna tell you I appreciate it a lot. Although its nothing major but I want to let you know it is very important to me, and the yellow-yellow bag I know its something very difficult for you but guess what its really been awhile since you've touched it ! I mean , let's take it as you didn't do it secretly la ok. So, lets........... enjoy what we have now because I love you you love me! It's not as easy as we say and imagine but we will make the best out of what we have alright little baby.
I'm feeling tired right now so I'm going to sleeeeeeeeeep already hehehehe.
Nightsnights I go for a cigg then I sleep already. See you tomorrow !
I wake up at 10.30am ! k !
CIAOS~

OH YA TODAY BABY'S DAD SAID : " CIAOS BELLA" TO ME HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA means Bye Beautiful. Muahaha.

1 more day.

2010-09-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

HIIIIIIIIII EVERYONE ITS BEEN LIKE FUCKING LONG SINCE I'VE BLOGGED!!
like super duper long because baby is taking up every minute of my time :)
hahahaha, okay.
But these two months has been quite fruitful for me, getting to know many sweet friends. People like jiaxin really very nice to be with without having any worries of talking crap and making funny faces. I really don't like it when my friends put themselves in a higher position and talk to me like a dog. THERE ARE PEOPLE LIKE THAT I SWEAR.

But God is good to me, removing these people from my life and adding in really sweet people.
I need to go back reporting tomorrow morning at 10am. Don't ask why but obviously I did something horrible so , I'll change and I hope the rest do too.
I've been using herbal essence's hair mask super nice smell i like i like .

Many times many things happened between adam and me , I appreciate concern but if you are not trying to help me but just to kaypo for nothing then forget it okay, I don't need people like you. I also appreciate advices but , I can see who is sincere and who is not so .. try harder if you don't want to be exposed.
But since things already happened this way , I hope we will make the best of what we have. I was really mean but because I really needed a time to be pissed off and not letting everything go just like that. Remember what I've wrote , mark my words Adam Trombetta :)
If like what you've said , everything will be better then there's nothing for you to worry about . Me too.
OKAY I'M VERY TIRED ALREADY HEHEHEHEEHE.
goodnight I will be back to blog again because I don't want my blog to be on hiatus too long, I need to gain my readers back !!!!!!

Love you all , nightynights!
one more day to second month :)

#nowplaying : Boulevard of broken songs.

2010-08-22T02:18:00.002+08:00

Hello. omg its been like almost two weeks since I've posted something on this blog.
Hahahahaa, i bet no one reads it already since I never update :(
But itsssssss alrighttttttttt, I need to update on my happy life with my baby.
It's been three weeks : We see each other everyday , I only remember two days we didn't meet up because of tonning the previous day. We eat together everyday , we watch movies we like together, we scold each other almost everyday , fight and quarrel , he pinches my fats and my neck everyday. and I love him everyday hehehehe.

We are going to have tea together tomorrow and maybe drop by van they all they playing pool at parkway. teehee, oh and yesterday me and baby walked all the way from tiongbahru to thomson. around poloclub there i think , and we barely survived the night until we saw.....
a 980 first bus in the morning. saved our lives. hehe.
Actually today I slept through the day. and also because of this. I lost my strongest friendship I had. I know there's nothing we can do to help because we all know that once something happen, it will be difficult to be like we were before. I don't want it to happen this way.
Maybe its also the same as relationship ,
let it go and if it doesn't come back its not meant to be yours.
I still cherish us.
I'm going to have another stick and sleep, tomorrow baby want me to wake up at 10am ! aiyoyo.
Anyway bie I like the song zai sang that time. very nice hehehe.
Goodnights mad people.
With lots lots lots of love ,
Sasha.

1st August 2010

2010-08-06T12:16:00.003+08:00

Hello mad people.
I'm currently madly in love for the past few days hence I didn't update my blog hehe.
Hi Gian Adam Trombetta , I love you. eheheh
He is sitting beside me now looking for handsome guys in his phone gayboy haha!
We are going to catch a movie later , actually steffi & bf coming one but ..........................................
Sad.
I feel like not going dance class. :(
We are going East Coast tomorrow and Vanz' friend's bbq on sunday yay all planned I'm so happy.
I wrote a very very nice letter to him. Show you !

I so sweeeeet right ! He also wrote one for me when i take photo then i post :)
Love you.
I'm going off now hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe. i want eat curry pok !
hehehe pai pai !

With lots of love,
S.

Pulpy.

2010-07-30T17:47:00.003+08:00

Hello mad mad. I finally got time to blog already !
Okay, exactly one week ago i went out with Hazel and many people~
Friday went jb with them go eat loklok and buy cigg HEHEHEHE, then on Saturday go again ! but with Maverick only also do the same thing haha so boring but okay la quite enjoyable time spent with them :)
Went to songka and play mahjong till late. okay, not exactly. like morning 6am then finish haha! quite early huh....
Oh ya today my dance class start already im currently at cine with deborah like a bored only. Class starts 7.30pm till 8.30pm @ O school. then go back Bishan meeting Peisunnnn.
Meeemuuhahaha. Hmmm . Just now webcam with Adam they all haha but was rushing off, so we text text teehee.
Oh I got myself a nose piercing last evening, at night cannot tahan I change to earstick haha!
Omg Deborah is doing something very crazy now, calling the girl .. that. . . . hahahahaha. Whatever, nobody is going to understand this part i'm typing.
Damn sian ley. Tomorrow meeting ah ber for movie and he's bringing me to skypark ! yoohoo, got fireworks to see, then Sunday maybe meeting Ashley , yesterday they all the shiguan people gone mad call me and one by one take the phone say miss me sia hahahahah. So nice, say very long never hear my voice already all these haha. then Ashley jealous leyy. HAHAHAHA.
Okay im going to enjoy my song facebook and msn & message my baby Adam ♥ hehehehehe.

Sneeeeeze!

2010-07-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO MORNING SICK PEOPLE.
NOWS. ADAYS everyone sick !
Flu , cough fever everything come together. I'm so sick .
People treat me like I got H1N1 on the bus and mrt i'm so sad.
I don't have :(
It's just common flu hehehehehehehehee.
2 days ago met up with Joshua and then Nick , then meet Steffi baby go find Min together.
Went back like 4am luckily yesterday no school !
He got beaten up so sad. haha. But i bet he did something wrong.
Steffi bought matching lighters for both of us i so so so love love her hehe.

Photos photos ,
This is bombom hahah!

With rayson :

Damn sian.
What's eggciting in Singapore? Nothing.
I wanna do egggciting stuffs,
Oh ya talking about this!
Jordan that sfz we gonna to go for a tattoo together ,same tattoo somemore! so cute!!
So look forward - ing to that. hehehehe.
Don't know what we are doing today , partial with deb like again. whole week doing the same thing. But I got a feeling she will not tomorrow because its PeterKenny. lol
Anyway , Deb got a nice shirt today its like that denim shirt I had, but got the hairy one line one line thing + the lace is black hehe. Mine is white and lighter & more washed shade.
I'm gone.
Byebye

With lots of love,
S !

Munchmunch!

2010-07-20T11:14:00.002+08:00

HELLO MADDIES !
I had breakfast together with deb this morning, later coffeeshop kakis meeting again hehehehehe. Hazel going to partial !!!! :( I also want ley. hahaha.
Anyway, Jordan showed me a kitten photo and say my dp same same.
SEE

hahahahahaha.
Oh and i found some random funny photos in my pc when i was uploading photos ,

HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO

haha! see ! bombom say he want to listen to class but , LOOK WHAT HE IS DOING.
SLEEEPING

haha and this msn convo this is super long ago already but never blog.
so this is how panda thinks of me :

and this is what i'm going to do to him :

I want to cut down my intake of nicotine (Y)
hahahahahaha,
Anyway , ANYONE WANT TO PARTIAL NOT ?!
Tristan is missing! HE SAY HE GOING TOWN :(
I'm going to continue pretending to do work.
CIAO LOVE YOU MADDIES.

With lots of love,
S!

Cheese

2010-07-15T02:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO CUTE PEOPLE.
I AM HONEY PUMPKIN.
HAHA SO CUTE.
POIYO POIYO, I CAN'T SLEEP THATS WHY I BLOG I HAVE NOTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO SERIOUSLY SO BORING , I SLEPT IN THE AFTERNOON SO I CAN'T SLEEP NOW.
I still have another few hours more to go before I prepare to go to school.
I want to force myself to sleep but I can't :(
Someone talk to me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee, facebook is currently super boring and Im tired of the games, and I don't want to play l4d2 in the middle of the night because I'm scared.
I WANT BREAKFAST.
I WANT ....
Where is my honey ?!

I'm done being crazy bb.

Squishy squashy

2010-07-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hello mad people!
I'm updating my blog for the sake of updating because im so lazy to put photos or whatever shit now haha. I was forced to on my pc to finish my work!
I was going to sleep ):
Anyway me and steffi baby got the same phone last week! We bought them together , its LG LOLLIPOP damn cute, and our new line has only one last digit difference! Cool right!
Mine is 3 hers is 9, so if you have my new num you'll know herssss HAHAHAHA i bet she's going to scold me if she sees this.
Im having my exams this week, and only ... to be exact. ONE MORE TEST TO GO AND WE'LL BE HAVING OUR HOLIDAYS (i think) Today Rayson just told me I'm not very sure also.
I asked him how long the holiday is.
He replied me : Depends how long you want.
HAHA CB.
But no matter how long my holiday is, I'll really cherish it because im so lacked of sleep and this and that. dah la dah la.
#nowplaying time to love -tara and supernova

People twit more hashtagsssssssss I likeeeeeeeee eehehehehehehe.
Love you all
I'm going to sleep,
Anyway today's test was easy! But.................... It will just mean that others will do much better haha!
Good the night, pai pai !

With lots of love,
S!

chiupid

2010-07-06T14:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO BABIES.

Yesterday went on a shoppping spreeee with ber ber at ion new look and sephora. hehe.

Happy.

Today IT security doing on virus, im finally doing some work hehe. I so hardworking !

So bored, I think im going deb house later. hehehehehehehe, slack together.

IIIIIII MMMMMMM SO BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Nick don't know meeting me not! Stupid sia. pua stunt! HAHAH

Im going to start presentation hehehe.

Pai pai love love.

With lots of love,

chibu chibu chup

2010-07-02T14:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO.
I'm currently in database class, omg. Stressssssssssssss like mad.
Okay, so difficult to get the grades for today siaaaaa.
Oh yah today IT security faci talked to meeeee, yesterday talked to deb, still got some other people lar, he so poor thing sia hahaha lazy to elaborate but I appreciate him trying to do so much for us already. hehe.
Don't know wtf is this angmoh faci talking about.
Yesterday watched Eclipse with ah ber, had dinner and a few ciggs then went back already.
Eeeeew I intercepted the letter. I'm so super lucky, it's like the first time I ever open the mailbox just to see if the letter come already not, then have sia! wa cb imagine I never, wa then when I go home i gg.
Super bored. third meeting starting like now, megala is currently talking _|_ for you.
I'm going to go on pretending to be hardworking , listening and did some work.
Goodbye.
& I REALLY GOT MISS YOU LA HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE RGYL

With lots and lots of love,
S!

pootpoot

2010-07-01T10:04:00.003+08:00

Hello, good the morning.
I had macdonald breakfast in the morning i so happy. Its been a while since I felt hungry.
Slept 19 hours yesterday. Slept at 6am, woke up at 8pm. Then sleep again at 11pm, then sleep until 7.30am. HEEHEEHEEHEEEEEEE sleep sleep and sleep.
You know why sleeping is so good ? because its the only time where you are unconscious (still alive) hehehehe.
Huuhuu in the morning with deb also, then came in class super late. like 45 minutes late. haha!
Watched Knight&day with riedle goh very nice sia the movie. Fucking funny, its been so long since I've laughed until i cry. mad funny.
Felix lee is talking and yakking away in class so boring keep talking. now want ask people to go down and take equipment so boring equipment for what sia this is communication use mouth la. Dumb siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
I'm going to fb and msn now. pai pai.
Riedle down there keep saying very moody. He got pms ! But no blood. He say one.
HAHAHAHAHAHA _|_
Love you.

PAI
With lots of love,
S!

TRUUUUUUUUUTRUT

2010-06-28T09:26:00.002+08:00

HELLO. It's been fucking long sia i never blog. hahaha! Like weeks, I think.
THAT RIEDLE GOH. IRRITATING SIA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH but so cute.
Updates, I watched A team* and Karate Kid with this Riedle Goh, nice sia the karate kid like fucking niceeeee. Touching also eehehe. Watched at downtown east ~
Met up with steffi during the week as well. Had a NICEEEEEEEEEEEE time with her haha.
Damn sian. No appetite to eat, vomit vomit, so itchy squitchy :(
Eyes so pain. Yesterday I hiccup no stop ley, but Edwin say : Hold your breathe and it'll be gone.
EH SIA REALLY CAN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Faci just said the next assignment will be released today. omfg. fuck java

HI RIEDLE GOH YI LIANG .
YOU ARE SO IRRITATINGLY CUTE. (Y)
No breakfast deluxe for you. dumbass

Ciaos
With lots of love,
S.

Love me? hehe

2010-06-20T03:31:00.002+08:00

Good morning, it's 3:56 am now. Actually i'm going to sleep if not Riedle Goh will kill me tomorrow because i'm supposed to meet him at 2pm tomorrow. which means I must wake up at 11am if not I will be late and he will be mad at me. Then I cannot kp him anymore. HAHAHAHAHA. We watching KARATE KID! wooo, don't know that panda want to come or not ask him so many times knn sleep sleep sleep never reply. now say i bastard the girl . HAI my ah pa is angry at me. Okay, I fucking don't know what to wear tomorrow so boring. Still need go ehub ley, who going ehub tomorrow come meet us luh, guan li don't know at where haha!
Woo panda coming.
Okay im going to sleeeeeep now.
Riedle sleep already confirm kenna from him if i don't wake up on time. fuck la

Goodnight !

With lots of love,
S!

Bree bree

2010-06-14T12:57:00.004+08:00

HI IM A LIKE A A NERD. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.
Damn long never blog already ley! Hehe im fucking doing java now. so difficult! But i already finish today's problem already teeheeheheeheeeheehe. &
2 days ago Steffi came over for a stayover! before that we went marina square for subway, suntec city to visit panda & guanli, and orchard to meet up with Nicholas they all ! hehe, and then yesterday we went threading and trim eyebrow at bedok came home super early because today got school :(
I so. hate. school . its so . boring.
Took many photos that day! hehe uploaded some to facebook already ! So happy.
Aiya too long never blog don't know what to blog omg!
Anyway steffi went back to work already hahahaha after being angry at the supervisor for one week the supervisor po paiseh to her then she go back work. haha!
Going to meet nicholas later at the airporttttttttt.
I want to go smoke already.
Pai pai

With lots of love,
S!

little update

2010-06-09T03:58:00.002+08:00

I AM ANGRY BECAUSE NICHOLAS SHEN DON'T WANT TO TELL ME WHAT HE WAS SAYING.
SAY HALFWAY DON'T WANT SAY !!!!!!!!!

I wanted to blog as normal but I angry :(
I went to bishan today, drink koi . chit-chat. smoke. ber and ps.
Steffi ah, go flirt flirt with other people neglect me nbcb, you better get back to me tomorrow if not you going to dieeeeeeeee.
Going shopping with steffi tomorrow, hehe. pai pai .
Now nicholas calling me, i angry i don't want answer. HUR.

♥

2010-06-05T05:13:00.002+08:00

We went to the AIRRRRRPORTTTTTTT again, HAHAHAHAHAHA. but today ber came along to help me with my java, wa so good his school using the same programme as mine. Can help me do (Y) heheheheehehe. Met up with steffi baby, we had secret recipe for dinnnnner hehehe.
Photossssss !

UNGLAM photos when we're eating, haha!

I like this photo! hahaah! stare at each other,

while waiting for steffi to finish work,

one whole series of my photos because ber nothing to do i made him take photos for me heheheheheheheheheheheheh (Y)

stone.

Wahahahaha, grab the control tower.

kiss kiss ♥

hahahaha my cheeeeky laughter after the successful photo,
Met up with nick after that. slack smoke eat charge handphone then go home haha!
Hope you understand what i've been trying to tell you the whole night(:
Reached home at 4am, until now. stone stone stone, blog, SLEEEEEEP HEHE.
Thanks everybody for the great day, really enjoyed it a lot.

(Not to mention M for ruining the start of my day, for all shit. Remember don't take advantage of people who tried to help you. because in the first place you didn't deserved it. I was nice enough to spend my phone batt and my fingers muscle to salvage your relationship. But what you've done you better not forget bastard.)

Goodnight! or morning. hahahahahaha its 5:39am. I'm going to sleeeeeeeeep~

With lots of love,
Lele!

Airport!

2010-06-04T04:11:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii ! It's been a long long day! Tomorrow meeting ber for java, deb going perth already ): Can't complain to her anymore hahahaha! Had so much fun with steffi at the airport, laughing and laughing at stupid things. Had popeyes for dinner, but couldn't finish nb. Love the biscuit.

Had a long talk with M , hope what you say is really what you mean. If things go out of hand I cannot just don't reply and think that everything will be okay anymore sorry. What you've explained, I hope you'll explain the same exact way to her. And about J, its okay, he can say whatever he like. Read through everything already, its impossible for me to send you all the messages because its not 1 or 2 messages. You and I clearly know what the contents are and i have a clear conscience , if others don't approve the way I comfort my friend, then too bad just shut your mouth up because its none of your business. And I hope she will stop dragging people that are not involved just to get back at me. I didn't mention any names in my status, so if you want to admit you are then, up to you also.
Don't be silly, what can a friend do if both your love is so strong? unless its not at all.

Drew something for nicholas , hehe sweeeet right!

but he also very smart ley nb still say I take the free paper.
Same goesss for you, if you think that i'm that kind of people. there's nothing I can do.
Hope whatever you say through the phone is what you mean as well.

Its 4:27am and im not sleepy, im turning into a owl. I want my body clock back to normal :(
I'll try to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. pai pai

With lots of love,
Lele!

Wasted my time,

2010-06-03T03:22:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiii , today i rotted again.
But its okay i have my days all packed from tomorrow onwards hehehehehe,
meeting steffi baby for dinner tomorrow, ber for java on friday, gerald for his secret shopping on saturday, oh . deb is going perth on friday! I will miss you hehe.
About the LELE II its a longgggg childhood story haha! Deb will understand (Y)
& I haven't blog about my new decorated roooom right!
Photos for you all ♥

the carpet is dark brown but in photo see like black ):

dressing table with photos hehehehehehe,
took these photos actually is to mms to steffi but since i have them so I blog (Y)
Everything is done, but my room smell of smoke now.
I'm going to do something about it! hehehehee if not mommy will kpkb again ):

Love,
You told me that's love.
Wtf, pea brain.
That is NOTHING compared to love.
Now its my turn to start the ball rolling,
Want to play?
Now is the time (:

Even love needs a holiday,

2010-06-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

Hello! hehehe. I'm so. bored. Steffi work work work work everyday WORK! Leaving me alone at home. But these days many people talk to me so , not that dead yet. hehee. I've been playing pool master all day long, hahaha mad. I just asked bernard to help me with java he pro :D hehehehe. Oh ya, not to forget someone irritating me still. Talk so much , talk talk talk. Who you think you are to talk so much to me? Everyone has the right to say me , but not you. Because you bloody doing the same thing, still want to talk logic to me? Go die. Stop ruining my day because I'm currently enjoying what I have, cherishing every person beside me. UNLIKE YOU.
Mr M is very sweet, HAHA! Just recieved a text from him. today ah pa number2 made my day, which ah pa? If i say he will scold me so he know i know can already hehe. I'm turning into a owl :( I need to smoke again. My cigg no more so i stole my dad's HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA lazy to walk so far to buy ley. In the middle of the night I scaredddddddddddd.
What am I going to do tomorrow?

Bye!

Can't change a thing.

2010-05-29T22:13:00.003+08:00

Can I say I miss you? But I don't want to.
I feel very unexplainable now.
Stupid idiot im, so..........................................
Okay nevermind.

See, he draw.
So cute.

Anyway, tomorrow the replacement furnitures coming then I have to be at home to oversee the whole thing, so boring. It's sunday lar, wtf.
Monday most probably meeting nick if nothing goes wrong.
hehe.
I feel sleepy i will smoke my last cigg and SLEEEEEEP.
Goodnight i really really really miss you alot , nb.

Let me know,

2010-05-27T10:42:00.004+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOO, like very long never blog already hehe.
Was busy these few days, and guess what.
ITS LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND ,
I HAVE TWO WEEKS OF HOLIDAY (Y)
I LOVE HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LIKE MAD. i need rest, i need play i need fun.
I dyed my hair dark purple, but photo cannot see ley im very sad. look very black my hair, HAI.
Where is that Nicholas Shen, ask me message message also you haven't wake up hehe.
You this teddy bear, we'll meet soon.
Class is boring, deb is bored too. we all bored.
Today I feel so comfortable with my tee-dress hehe.
I FORGOT TO BRING JACKET IM SO COLD

I'm going to have fun for holidays hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.
Please make appointment with my secretary hehehehehehehe.
I'm going to study nao, last day already must pretend to be hardworking pai pai.
I miss Steffi ):

Love love me love love me.

2010-05-24T01:06:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiiiii, hehe. I. in. a. good.mood. Today I bought frootloops for edwin haha! so cute, he so shock to recieved it also, see :

But i changed the words to :
Hello Edwin, this is your beloved ♥ "frootloops"
With lots of ♥ , Sasha.
hehehehe,

Okay, went ikea today with mommy. bought new furnitures (Y) they say they'll deliver to my house on thursday. heheheh those furnitures so fairytale I like! Can't wait can't wait for my newly decorated rooooooom. muahahahaha.
Met up with peisun after that, that's why bought cereal for edwin. Because suddenly remembered haha.
MY HOLIDAYS COMING WOOOOO I SO HAPPY!! Friday is my holidayssssss, twooooo fucking weeeeeekssssssssss. I'm going to have funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. teeheeheeheeeee. I'm going to dye my hair tomorrow. (Y)
Should I take out my snakebite? Okay i'll think about it next time , its killing my braincelllllssssss.
I'm going to look for the pink pills now , for deb. its missing.

Goodnight!

With lots of love,
Sasha.

Forgive, but never will I forget.

better off without you (Y)

2010-05-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

Hi ! You are lucky to catch me in a happy mood today, although I've vomitted my afternoon away, but I feeel perfectly fine now teheeehee. I vomitted almost after all my meals, mygod. my stomach has absolutely nothing inside i think. Okay la have la, a bit lor. HAHAHAHA.
Today when I was in the lift up to GH, this girl said to me : Your tattoo very nice, but so big.
Haha i don't know how to reply , i just laugh. hahaha!
But if you can see right still have the left over of my wings, haven't complete yet . hahah so sad. that pokey thing so ugly. #$%^&*^%$# nevermind it'll be gone soon. My tattoo heal 80% already, waiting for the second layer of skin to grow back fucking itchy like fuckkkkkk.
These days i smoke very fast , my cigg like so fast finish ! I feel unhealthy. okay bullshit.
Now my room very cold, oh ya mommy is bringing me to buy new furnitures for my room tomorrow (Y) I very happy. Next time show you all photos , of my newly decorated room. hehehe, I know she wants to keep me at home ah, thats why !!
Deborah spammed me almost 90 calls in the morning. I thought not going lan so i on silent an off vibration so i sleep until like dead I didn't know she was calling. hahahaha.
But damn long never sleep until so LONGGGGG ley, i like i like. to sleep until I ownself suddenly open my eyes. Song ah.
Teeheeheehee, i'm going to dye my hair on monday. This time dark brown or something okay? Because my hair so bright now i don't like! hehe.
Okay im going to sleep soon its 2:47pm nao. Goodnight!

With lots of love,
S.

i'll miss you, for the last time.

2010-05-22T00:13:00.004+08:00

You know what, you'll be gone soon. I know how this works.
To think about it, we didn't share the love.
I purely shared MY love with you, and you took it just as it is, for granted.
You were everything that I wanted but i'm not what you wanted. At all.
WE WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO BELONG TOGETHER.
It's a huge mistake.
& the smart thing to do is to not repeat it again.
I want to walk but i kept running back to you like an idiot. You want to win ? Yeh you won.
Satisfied?
I'm tired of this whole thing, tormented daily and I still try to lie to myself that everything will be alright. Good bullshit. Wtf was i thinking, I'm not in the right mind obviously.
Think think think Sasha. Forget forget forget.
But one thing you must remember is that he've never loved you.
Facade.
I've done enough stupid things, you carry on with yours. and I'm off.
& this is fucking from the bottom of my heart.

If you didn't exist.

2010-05-20T21:25:00.002+08:00

"According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces.
Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half.

I hope that my other half is out there somewhere."

So sweeeeet! Okay today I very lazy to find photo and post, and im fucking not feeling well im very sad. I feel sleepy and i've been doing nothing except smoking my time away. I feel so. bad.
I have UT tomorrow, after school and that is stupid.
I hope i can sleep 20 hours ):
I must constantly remind myself not to trust so easily omg,
Goodnight!

Pick myself up

2010-05-19T22:35:00.002+08:00

Ways to kill yourself.
These are old drawings that I wanted to blog but I keep forgetting, i was look through my pictures then I saw. ahah, now i know he wanted to die so much when we were together.
HAHA! okay, but the truth I really have no photos to post today so just make do with these once -were-very-cute to me drawings.
Today i had UT, but seriously from morning all the way till UT started I wasn't doing any studying except thinking of what's happening. one thousand calls to make, to answer to text to explain to ask to listen to get fucked. HAHAHAHAHAHA, awesome. Now everything is good, and I felt this super duper tiredness when I sat down just now. Stoning, and when stupid gerald go and comment on a DAMN FUCKING LONG AGO photo i saw his comments, about he want to chop me up. i laughed. then stone. then start to feel weird. You know got this kind of feeling, like....... I don't know how to explain! Just weird, last time i will feel sad. now its... weird. haha! I hope this means Im forgetting everything. But I can promise, sooner or later I will be able to feel nothing. WHICH MEANS I SUCCEED. Please praise me by then. I love praises. teehee.
(Y)
I want to sleep. haha. like tired, OH TODAY I WAS SITTING DOWNSTAIRS AND SMOKE,
haahaha then damn funny, got this primary school kid and the maid, i think they come down walk the dog. then , the kid bought root beer. then :

maid : Beer?!
kid : No, its ROOT beer. its not really beer.
maid : But you see , BEER. (pointing to the can) & examining it in a weird way.
kid : NO ITS NOT.
maid : (do the drunk walking)

I was like haha wtf but damn cute sia they two.
Okay i'm done i want to sleep NOW pai pai

Finally you are out of my mind

2010-05-18T01:47:00.002+08:00

Weehee, today i skipped lessons. met deb & bf at yishun for breakfast which i didn't finish. One meal i took thirty minutes still never eat finish hahahaha! then went to meet steffi baby at her place. dilly dally here and there then we left for changi airport. Because she go for interview at titi's workplace! haha I think she starting work on Wednersday, then after that we went to century square for movie. Saw the irritating nick and friends. I finally watched the IPMAN2, damn nice! aha. Tomorrow might be swinging by again because baby needs to buy shoes and I also want! I saw very cute shoes I want to buyyyyyyyyyyyyy buy buy buy buy.
Today actually boring but haha talk to steffi make me laugh like fuck whole day, we sit down there can talk about really stupid things but her nonsense logic always make me laugh.
Now is 1:52 am and I don't know why I'm not sleeping, when i'm fucking tired already. I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow, so i'll have to use blogging as my sleeeping pillllsssssssss again.
teehee, okay i'm turning in !
KOOD PAI.

With lots of love,
S!

heheheheeheheheheeh.

flowery

2010-05-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

Tweee tweee!
Goooood midnight, im very bored and i don't know why I can't sleep. but my normal practice is I would get sleepy after blogging. So i'll try.
Anyway today me and nic was talking then ended up we in a relationship in facebook, then the commotion really very funny. He so cute haha. My new baby.
Planned to zao school tomorrow but deborah seemed to be better already, don't know la. but im meeting steffi for sure in the middle somewhere. Talking to Nikkie Sweed now haha but he going off to sleep, we were discussing about this er insomnia thing haha long story but we found out we damn wrong after so much discussion, totally on the wrong track (Y)
Now im getting tired, yes la. blogging and nicotine is my sleeping pills.
Steffi called me! I go talk on the phone and take one more stick then i sleep yes la.
Goodnight hehehehe.

ready?

2010-05-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

Hi !
It's been a long & tiring day. although i never do anything except vomiting whatever i ate , I don't know why haha stupid stomach. It's like there's almost nothing in my stomach right now despite i've been eating. Can't believe I always find myself stupid when I've just did something and then i found out something - I know you don't understand but its okay. Today I sat downstairs before I go back home because I think its so early so I took a puff and thought about things. I was smiling and then got irritated, smile again, irritated. haha! like retard. because I was thinking about when I first met him, and then followed by the sweet things, then after that its totally havoc. Like wtf why did all these happened.When I came back home EVEN WORSE YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT I SAW. just totally crap. I know by blogging it its worst but. I don't care! Just find someone new and fuck off.
I have two drawings someone drew for me but i forgot to upload so im going to leave it for tommorow's post (:
Hehehehe. went gaming with deb today, then .. tomorrow actually have gaming session but I need to go job interview with steffi baby and then check out my pc's stuffs. Jason low supposed to reply me about it but so late already he reply halfway he go missing maybe sleep already.
Frozen.
Anyway I have another phone line that i might call you guys with because a very very very generous person called ber just sponsered me a phoneline HAHAHAHAH thank you!
MY TATTOO FEELS WEIRD NOW, the skin peeling off soon but arghhhhhh can just peel faster not its so #$%^& (don't know how to describe) I want to want to want to want to. Sleep!
OH AND JASON CHAN! BETTER BUY MY HELLO KITTY BACK FROM JAPAN! HEHEHE I DONT WANT NO BISCUITS (Y)

MEN WHO PLAY PIANO VERY CHARMING! ♥♥♥♥♥
Huuuhuuuhuuuuu.

Hi baby you are so addictive, don't pretend don't know i'm talking about you TEEHEEHEE.
Goodnight!

Maybe I should.

2010-05-14T22:29:00.003+08:00

Heehee, today mood super good for no reason. and i love to be alone at home, i can sing loudly, laugh loudly, run in the house, laugh at nothing, talk to myself, act cute. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, today mom and dad went to the parent's talk boring shit. then everyone went out I don't know where they go, but im damn tired to go anywhere so i was watching tv doing nothing actually.
I watched JUST FOR LAUGH super funny like fuck. I laugh all the way the whole one hour, those who got watch I think the Blind man one most funny & the one the pretty girl change into old woman. the last guy who kenna VERY CUTE ! but he also quite smart he walk straight pretend nothing happen, the rest just paused and walk back. but then the Police all wear funny clothes not even police uniform why they so stupid believe them. huu huu.
I want to see my friends kenna just for laugh ley, so funny and embarrassing!
My tattoo healing as per normal very uncomfortable please just heal fasterrrrrrrrr.
Tomorrow going lan at clarkquay with deb, but don't know can wake up or not ahah! I plan to sleep early ( as in like now ) I know so early but I yesterday night never sleep properly I very sad. Today in school on mrt all these want to dozed off, did java today fucking difficult :(
Question of the day?

Q:what is the one thing that changed your life other way round ?...
A:Hmmm....No idea haha!

I think have many things la but you expect me to say its someone or what then, no.because they won't be able to. haha!
But many things contribute tho (:
Okay super tired no reason why.
Goodnight

With lots of love,
S!

Don't compare, because we are the same.

2010-05-13T22:15:00.003+08:00

Light away your sorrows.
HAHA I LIKE! so drama. Okay . anyway question of the day :

Q:How would you feel if you're an inspiration for a kid ???? :)...
A:haha so cute! glad to be (:

from formspring. so cute, like glad to but I think it's bad. like if you talking about tattoos and cigg then .. ya. Don't hahahahaha. Kids are adorable.
(Some)
Huuhuuu, did my tattoo halfway. the lotus done. waiting for it to heal before continuing to put the dragonflies. . around two weeks. I'm tired but i really hate to sleep with new tattoos, they always....... argh disgustingxyzxyzxyxzyxz.
I wanna buy a new lappy. mini one so that its lighter so i no need to carry this fucking heavy laptop to school. mother cheeebye.
One whole day never talk to Steffi, don't know where is she right now ):
I miss you bei bi ♥
Saturday or sunday most probably going lan with deb. heheeheh. (Y)

wa very nice song, ah panda ah pa introduce one.
You can't break a broken heart by Kate Voegele.

Won't be so easy
This time to hurt me
You can try
This time, know baby, there are no tears left here to dry
If you think you can woe me like before
If you think you can do that anymore
Won't get to far, nooo
You can't break a broken heart

So try your best now baby
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart

Hurt me before now
Won't hurt no more now
Not this time
You might do better messing with someone else's mind
Cuz you're not gonna break me down again
Your done with doin' me the way you did
It's gone to far, eh
You can't break a broken heart

So try your best now baby
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart

So don't waste your time
Your time has come and gone
What are you here for?
You can't hurt me any more

So try your best now baby
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart

So try your best now baby
Try your best to break me
You can't break a broken heart
No damage you can do now
I'm immune to you now
You can't break what broke apart
There's nothing you can do to me no more
You can't break a broken heart

Break a broken heart

I wanna sleep nao hehehe. goodnight!

With lots of love,
S!

Hehehehe.

2010-05-12T03:03:00.003+08:00

Hello ! Today i went off around 10am with deb & bf. Went aimlessly but in the end we still found something to do. Which is... to go lan. haha! Me and deb l4d2, the bf play CS. I want learn to play CS ley! But no time play, the l4d matches enough to drive us crazy. Tahan four hours of game, then went to meet Panda, Nic & Dan for dinner but, I don't know why I not hungry.
Saw Guanli there also, after dinner we went somewhere to slack. But total in all I really think that today they've helped me alot. If not i'll be still naively thinking that everything will be fine soon. when everything ALREADY ended. haha. Can you believe I put my l4d2 name as ♥Joshua, i still take photo! wanted to post but , changed my mind and I won't. Things that I know I will not mention, because I don't want & don't like quarrels. As always.
I normally don't because I still want the person in my life. But this one special because I hope he don't talk , don't comment, don't like my status. then it'll be perfect. because when he does I don't know why it turns out annoying instead of anything else.
Thanks Deborah, Steffi, Panda , Nic, Dan especially haha. (Y)
Talking on the phone with steffi baby, im tired and. I really give up on you already so, please stop doing annoying things.
Pai pai.
Doing my chest tattoo tomorrow.

Goodnight!
With lots of love,
S.

formspring.me

2010-05-10T20:24:00.001+08:00

ask some CREATIVE questions please<3 http://formspring.me/sashakiss

Fly me to the moon

2010-05-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

Hello! a fulfilling sunday. (other than mother's day) I actually missed the dinner yesterday night with them and i really feel SOOOOO bad. It's like, I think I made a wrong decision to stay there, like stupid also right. I should've just went for the dinner & everything will be as fine as they were(: Nevermind, stupid once never stupid twice (haha steffi's quote)
& Slow goodbye lesley roy is a niceeee song!

I can read the lines
On your face
And they're telling me
Everything I already know
Yeah

I hold you in my arms
But you're light-years away from me
Slowly sinking
Under alone
Yeah

So I act cool
On the outside
But it's eating me
Alive

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye

Sitting in the park after dark
Smoking cigarettes
Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all I ever wanted was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right but it's too late

I'm a hopeless case
On the inside
And it's eating me
Alive

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye

I die
A million times
Every time when you
Look me in the eye
And lie
Cause I've heard it all before
The same game
We go around and around
But I still end up with nothing
But hurting

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Yeah

There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
I can't take another
Slow goodbye

&! Yesterday steffi SUDDENLY very nice, hhaha like give me quotes somemore, so unusual she must've copied from somewhere , but very meaningful :

If you caught a butterfly, let it go. If it comes back, it's meant to be yours. If it didn't, it's never meant to be.

but right the more times i read, the more i feel that the english somewhere is wrong, but what you expect, its Steffi. HAHAHAHA but i understand the meaning la, thanks baby. a lot
I know what to do from now on!
Cherish what you have, be contented and life will be happier.
(Y)

Yesterday i cut my hair, as in trim. So it looks less spoiled & my hair won't cover my eyes.
I think brandon did treatment, haha then the rest of us down there slack slack.
See nic, so gay use my mirror...
Oh and the following photos are the guys trying to catch a kitten from the tree. but apparantly the kitten doesn't want to come down. haha & disgusting panda and hongjie gay-ing each other.

After that went to mac to meet kam they all, because he birthday and he recieved a birthday condom so cute! Me and steffi went to tmall and bought chocolates & a sexy card for kam hahahaha. then kam says he allergic to chocolates ): but he ate one at least HAHAHA.
I haven't give him his giantic heart yet, but when we came back he say he wants my giantic heart card , so nice.
Soon soon i'll pass it to you ok. haha!
Doiyo today learning encryption and decryption , like SECRET CODE hahaha so fun.
Next time enemy cannot read what we write.
(Y)
LOVE YOU PAI PAI
I wanted to type love chiuxz but i really can't force myself to twit hahahahahahahaha

2010-05-09T11:30:00.002+08:00

Hello! hehe i just woke up , why so fast blog? because I want to clean off all the old posts so i very hardworking blog blog blog. Today going to meet my dearest baobei , then might be meeting panda, (nic call him panpan) so cute. Then also maybe meeting nic for the mp4, kam & nik for brownies. Hmmmmm, fully packed schedule .. even if all the 'maybe's don't happen , i still have steffi~ WE GOING TO GIVE KAM A GIANTIC BIRTHDAY CARD, then but don't know what to buy for him. hahahahahaha. Kam must be touched please, if not we will be sad.
Happy birthday kam, and happy mother's day!
I'm off to prepare very soon , my little baobei also (EH GOING 12 ALREADY FASTER GO AND PREPARE OK) swing by bedok, tmall to buy stuffs then we're done.
Sorry baby i will be nagging, its me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOVE YOU.

Paipai.
Huuuuhuuuhuuuu truuuu truuu.

Hello cereal killer.

2010-05-08T21:07:00.002+08:00

Hehehehe today i was eating cereal, then reminded me of panda tell me serial killer.
cereal killer. cereal killer. Edwin insisted that fruitloops are the best, no lor please. HAHAHAHAHA i just said that to make you happy. Next time go your place buy frootloops for you(: When i'm mad or sad I will spam cereal with a lot of milk, after that I will bathe and sleep. super happy. When I wake up , I will be okay like very fast one. Although i have naturally sad kitty face , but I talk alot to make myself happy one ley and talk a lot HEEHEEHEE. Once you know me I cannot stop talking too bad.
HUU HUU HUU, was talking to kam just now & he agreed to whatever i say as always hahaha always so sweet. Then we mentioned about making brownies for mother's day! Oh and kam's birthday IS ON MOTHER'S DAY! Should be making brownies at nik's place.. but nik don't want to reply cb.

I want make heart shaped browies! ♥ so cute! hahahaha. Anyway i folded hearts for Joshua from last time still on my table haha i didn't give him, just saw it. I planned to fold many many many many hearts from different papers and different sizes, then put in a large box and give it to him on first month. I thought of that yesterday when I was bathing. haha! but its okay, i can give it to steffi HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH she sure scold me! say I very idiot.
But i still love you , haha.Tomorrow come with me go make brownies ley if can, don't bring cockroach come scare me please ♥
The most i help you make ONE brownie. big one then you can give your mother.
So long never see you, miss you. Tomorrow morning I go find you we search through the newspaper, then if after that you meeting nic we go together (: I will run around a lot to keep my mind occupied hha,best.
I feel like drinking milk tea #$%^&*^%$#%^&.
HAHA BUT NOW I WANT TO BATHE AND SLEEP! eyes very very very very tired!

Goodnight darlings ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

chances.

2010-05-08T02:23:00.004+08:00

Hi. lazy to elaborate what happened today, but overall went bugis with peisun and hangout with her until eugene came to fetch her.
I think they celebrate kam's birthday.
On the phone with steffi now, and I hate panda because he keep scaring me in the middle of the night. go and die.
okay i very tired i want to sleep.
goodnight.

Because I love you

2010-05-06T11:16:00.002+08:00

(from richelle's blog)

Hi darling, i'm blogging while you are sleeping soundly in the room heehehee.
Yesterday I had a long long talk with him, and its always that few same problems (i mean roughly la ok) that caused us to talk in a serious manner. which is irritating, but if that is all it takes for you to realise that you love me more, I really don't mind talking to you even for ten hours. True enough, through quarrels we might know each other more. but i've seen people who ended up losing each other. I don't want that to happen and I don't want to have even the least chance of you getting sad. I'd rather i'm the one who is sad, alone. Because baby you are so special to me that I don't want to hurt you. Remember I've said, I wish you die earlier than me ( hahahahahahaha i know it sounds super mean ) but all because I can't bear to see you being sad when I'm gone.
I realised my little baby changed for me, ---- Hahah this part continue from afternoon because baby wake up I scared he peep at my post.
We slept aiyo so nice to sleep , so tired. Hehehehehe.
anyway, very hungry now so the maid cooking for us I very happy, BECAUSE i realised my baby don't eat one. When he eat I never see also one, HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I'm going to go and eat !
By the way, I love you baby & you will be always this special in my heart.
No matter what changes, aite? ♥♥♥♥♥♥

& thank you for everything, really.
heehe.
Peel prawns.
I feel like eating honeystars you know.

SOUR POWER

2010-05-04T10:44:00.003+08:00

Hi. In class now, very .boring . class outcasting that lok kuay, hahaha so sad for her.
I miss baby a lot. ley, how ah. He working, but he say he want to be prince. haha.
His name really very prince-y.

anyway today I saw this person on the mrt , then his nose a bit funny one, like the center (you know people pierce septum there) then is the inside is VISIBLE from outside. as in i stand beside i can see whole of inside. THEN STILL NEVERMIND KNOW, is that got one patch of hair down there. Ala sia disgusting, why never want to cut or shave or what, the shape already funny still got hair wapiang i see already i stunned.
& today the bus queue is exceptionally exaggeratingly long, like three times the normal queue. Then when people come down from the inter escalator , their cheeky grin they give to their friend when they want to cut queue i swear very irritating. haha but when i cut queue i also do the same thing, just that i didn't find myself irritating. huuu huuuu contradicting bitch.
Milk tea in the morning again! & late again haha i think everyday i late, i only have 4 classes , all four minus grade. cb

Yesterday went to find steffi at bedok, did threading. haha threading very pain ley, some parts. the forehead all these still like okay like very comfortable when she thread, THEN when at the mouth and the side of my ears there i feel like killing myself especially that one straight line she did , striaght down i was like WTF then she comfort me say ITS OVER. but wtf! so painful! ( baby, this rating is 11/10 for that part ) overall pain rating is 7/10 HAHAHAHA.

then took cab look for baby (: Haha , when I don't listen to him he will do the handlock or leglock or whatever shit to me and its damn ticklish i cannot take it i will struggle, when i struggle he will hold tighter then MORE TICKLISH nb then he force me to tap out if not I think i will die in the house. ( tap tap tap tap tap out ) K.O Then we play guessing game, because he drinking milk to eat medicine, then he do actions and ask me to guess what he trying to say hahaha , fucking funny because he look like retarded-retarded then i keep laughing non-stop hahaha and his annoyed face when I don't get it, is super cute. And his way of describing " TOMORROW " is like totally ...... weird. I cannot catch it at all he want to laugh cannot laugh later all the milk drip out ehheeeheheheheheheheheheheheh.
I typed a lot for this blogpost today ; ah today steffi want to meet but meet at tamp cb, so far. I think she want to meet nic ley argh. she wants to look for job, job job job jobjobjobjobjbojboj blowjob. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH

BABY I LOVE YOU !
Where are you I want to see you hahahaha, SATURDAY PACT.
Yesterday baby so cute he say : "you look very exceptionally pretty today, must be too long never see you already"
haha then i say ok good we meet 1 week later then you miss me a lot i become very pretty.
YAY (Y)

" Outta gas, so you walk for miles to
Pick me up in your worn out shoes, you
Never settle, never take too much, you
Count on me just like I count on you
Kiss me, like when I first saw you
Figured out I couldn't be without you

You, you, you,
You, you, you, you
I, I, I, I, I, I
I want you
I want you, you, you
You, you, you, you
I, I, I, I, I, I
I want you

No one else will do (I want)
No one makes me smile (I want)
No one gets me how (I want)
No one else is
You, you, you
I want you, you, you
You, you, you, you
I, I, I, I, I, I
I want you
I want you, you, you
You, you, you, you
I, I, I, I, I, I
I want you "

So nice this song. Okay, PAI PAI !!
Miss biebie & steffi ♥

Sometimes the sweetest things is the things that only you and him understand, the jokes the crap and the love that you two share, and that's what i share with my little baby Joshua Hay Jia Jun. We always say we don't need each other, but deep down inside , you and I , we know we do. Don't pretend k. hehehehehehehehehehehheeheh i love you many many ♥

formspring.me

2010-05-03T11:26:00.001+08:00

ASK ME SOMETHING, IM SO.... BOREDDDD http://formspring.me/sashakiss

DOIYO DOIYO

2010-05-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

Hi.
We quarrel.
again.
But everything seems........ SEEMS fine for now. he's sleeping. haha.
Lazy to type much because so many small things happen in one day, or rather, one afternoon.
Actually supposed to catch movie this weekend but yeh, no more. haha. then, baby going to start work tomorrow I think. MEANS whole week not free,MEANS we meet next week. MEANS its going to be a long week, MEANS im going to be sad.

Doiyo. doi. doi. I feel like watching movie, feel like eating , feel like talking to someone.
Argh.
I want to change blog photo hehehe. pai pai i go change.

BABY WAKE UP LEY, i just flooded your whole wall.
HAHAHA, i scared he wake up scold me.
):

love you joshua hay jia jun.
♥

HEE HEE HE SAY VERY UGLY.
but i still love him.

PAI PAI

my little baby.

2010-05-01T01:35:00.003+08:00

HELLO. went over to find baby super tired but I really really miss him a lot so I didn't go back to iras to return the stupid staff pass and they say they will deduct my pay. but , nevermind i get to see baby enough already (: HEHEHEHEHEHEH TODAY VERY HAPPY, because baby take many photos with me. and his reason is : I feel very handsome now. so can take photo HUUHUU. & today he wear short pants I like! with the big big shoes so cute hehe.

Baby changed his profile photo to same as mine without knowing which one i chose! hehehe so coincidental.
Today I was super tired i really really fell asleep at biebie house, (actually I know you kissed me 3 times because i was half-awaked already) hehe but I pretended that I didn't know. See your reaction only, muahahahahahaha i love you!
I'm a stoner sleeper. Baby understands. haha!

Joshua hay jia jun is my little cutey bei bi & nobody can replace him in my ♥ because my heart is very small, he already took all the space inside.
& i will give, and is giving him overloaded amount of ♥ ! I love you bei bi.

please don't ask me to touch the worms can? please please. Use other ways to prove my love I really very scared of the worms. today i touch the bottle i already traumatised ): I don't want worms , when they are alive ; i'm dead.

Time for the ♥ photos i've been bragging about.

♥

Steffi say I look like momok with very nice eyes and features. I don't know I should laugh or what. hahahaha.
f.y.i. momok means ghost in malay.
nb.

(this photo is taken yesterday hehe)

Hokay i swear im really feeling super tired right now, its 2:15 am I just realised and I already don't have strength to do anything else than to shut down my lappy, walk to my bed, off the lights. SLEEEEEEP.
These few hectic days really drained my energy. totally. damn. tired.
OH YA I SUDDENLY REMEMBER. TODAY ME AND DEBORAH SCOLDED THAT DUMB ASS.disgusting act sexy whore.
She really the mouth too big, already don't like her she still kpkb, give me chance to scold her only. too bad.
Everyday need to see her she better be good if not she get it HAHA OMG.

&
LASTLY,
I LOVE JOSHUA HAY JIA JUN & HE LOVES ME TOO ♥
RIGHT , BABY?

With lots and lots and lots and lots of love,
S.

Little mousey

2010-04-30T00:10:00.003+08:00

HELLO. SEE MY BABY SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE., the ribbon very cute i draw ehehe i very happy. Today i spend time with him from 2pm to 10pm, very happy.
These few days my bei bi treat me so good, as in really very very nice. my perfect boyfriend hehe. I know its difficult for him that's why i really appreciated it a lot ♥ really very happy that we sat down and talk that day(:
This little mousey still say want to see me just after i left !! hahahaha so sweeet my bao bei.
Very tired I slept 2 fucking hours yesterday, now feel like my eyes are dehydrating + tired. I have around 6 more hours to sleep.

But, i miss baby so much ):
Where are you.
Where are you.
Where are you.

TODAY BABY SING " BU YAO WEN WO CONG NA LI LAI " I STUNNED.
THEN LAUGHED VERY LONG HAHAHA SO FUNNY.
Speak chinese also shocking he still sing this kind of song!

BEI BI TOMORROW YOU WORK DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME CAN? TEXT TEXT ME, ALL THE LOVE LOVEY MESSAGES LEY, I LIKE HEHEEHEHEHEHHEHEHEE.
I VERY tired already i want to SLEEEEP, pai pai.

You are the sweetest drug you little mousey Joshua Hay Jia Jun.
♥ you more , don't fight with me.
Don't kick me anymore pish. hehehehehe

GOODNIGHT

Twisted, messed up, mind

2010-04-28T17:50:00.006+08:00

Hi !
Yesterday had a great day with biebie and the rest of the people! Damn tired I think i've been awake for like 24 hours without sleep haha. but still, i get to spend time with biebie!
We stayed at inter mac than went to lanshop until 2am then we went some weird stage place to slack and talk hehe.
Hmm, but a lot of things happen haiya, now okay already but i scared.
Biebie very good to me as in when i say very good its REALLY VERY NICE, is really need to pray to god that he doesn't revert back..
which is.. slim chances but. let's just hope and i'll cherish every moment that he is nice to me.
because it will be the sweestest sweeeeetest memories i have already. You will have no idea how I feel because im the only one who understands the feeling hehe jealous right.

love bie bie i want to go prepare already they wanna go out celebrate mr daniel heng's birthday, think they wanna eat dinner and shisha.
Pai pai!

With lots of love,
S.

Make up your mind.

2010-04-26T13:10:00.004+08:00

HELLO. ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE BLOGGED.
A brief update :
It's been a weird week with baby. I don't know why I enjoyed yesterday although I was angry with him but, he made me laugh when I was going home. Then everything I was angry about disappeared. Hai why?!
I like when baby whisper to me he so cute, like small little mouse hehehehehehehehe.
He also called me when im on my way back, so nice.

And, Kimy likes Steffi. HAHAHAHAHA, problem is he go and send sister request on fb to her, for fuck. killed all his chances, and its only ONE hour apart from that afiq's relationship request. Sad. Kimy you were one hour away from your little mermaid..

I miss my baby a lot. a lot. a lot.
& he scolding me for blogging very slow. lao cb.

):
I cry.

But sometimes he very nice:

and he do the slit & bang action for me i feel like squeezing his cute face and slap his ass.

Hu, hu. his drawing improved already.
I don't want say he treat me bad I still love him already, everytime I say He happy then he forget all the bad things he do .
HI BABY I ONLY SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN YOU NICE TO ME ! ):

i love you ♥

Many ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ give you, hehe.
~~See you later okay.~~

24 April 2010

2010-04-24T11:41:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to meet two of my dearest people.
When I see Steffi I very happy , then I see Baby, VERY happy.
He smile. I smile. hehe.
Then..

We never talk to each other for 5 hours.

then the rest of the story........... I also don't know what happen. So cool.
I only remember sitting at tampines macdonald with steffi & jokim for 3 hours.
Stone.

Go tampines and sit.
Omg.
But when I came home I see the texts I cry like dog. So stupid. but still cry.
I punch the bolster.
Punch.
Punch.
Punch.
I die.

K.O i sleep.
Wake up lagi worse.
FOTS.

But I still love my bf.
(Y)

Hi Joshua Hay Jia jun ♥

23 April 2010

2010-04-23T14:53:00.003+08:00

Hello! This is a Slit & Bang photo. but look more like he surrender and someone point the gun at him. Baby drew for me just now, YESTERDAY baby did the action for me very funny i kept laughing. he so cute hehehe. He say is secret ley but i blog out already its not secret anymore heeheehee. I love you.
He say im Tiger. because i fierce ):
He say he going town find job.
He say not meeting me.
I sad.
But he say i sound very happy.
Haha.
HAHA DOESN'T MEAN HAPPY.
(HAH HA HA AH AH AHA HA AH A) ( im sad )
hehe.
Baby, ni zai na li ?

Appear appear ley, i in school very bored. steffi also wanna cry already she waiting for you at tmart but you still at home!!!! She very fierce to me also she say there very hot and she don't want go Macdonald because many ppl see her hair.

HI .
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
See you on SATURDAY HEHEHEHEHEHEEHHE. WO AI NI AH.

I've been spending my time all my time,
Just thinking about you.
I don't know what to do ):
I've been waiting all my life,
Now i've found you.
Joshua Hay Jia Jun ♥

I realised, many couples will say how much they don't need each other everytime they want to make each other angry. but deep down inside they need each other more than anybody else.
I do, too hehehe.

LOVE YOU BABY

21 April 2010

2010-04-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

baby say me : " YOU VERY CHILDISH LEY "

I very sad. ley.
This Joshua Hay Jia Jun very purposely one ley.
We quarrel we don't even know why we quarrel.
ha.ha.
Yesterday went to Baby's house stayover.. then morning wake up 6.30am take cab home, 7am reach, washup, sleep.
wake up at 1pm, very hungry go out to eat because my mother angry with me then i keep lying on the bed until 5pm , all the way sleep. I feel like pig..
Baby also scold me pig.
HAIYA, im very pek cek ley why ah .
Bye.

19th April 2010

2010-04-19T14:58:00.002+08:00

HI.
My baby drew this for me in msn. Can you figure out what are they???????
Anyway the first one very cute ley he draw heart.

I also draw for him.
HEHEHEHEEHE.

I'm very bored.
I don't know what baby do yesterday.
I don't know what he doing now.
I don't know don't know many things.
I .
ehhee.
am.
a.
blissful girl.
because Ignorance is bliss.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA.
LOVE YOU BABY.
Want to see you on wednersday ♥

18 April 2010

2010-04-18T11:40:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING EARTHLINGS.
YOU SEE I VERY FREE NOW BLOG RIGHT, JUST NOW DAMN TIRED I FALL ASLEEP ON THE TRAIN I ALMOST MISS MY CITYHALL STOP. AND I THINK I SLEEP UNTIL MY MOUTH OPEN SIA WA PAISEH, THEN I USE MY HAND TO COVER AND SLEEP.HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I KEEP SNEEZING AND SNEEZING WA VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.
i miss steffi ley. today will blog her photo (: hen xiang ni.
Yesterday went Nikkie house, along with Baby ♥ , Daniel, Kam , & Kimseng.
Do what? Don' t tell you.
Then, went back home in the morning 7am , FUCKING TIRED, MY EYES LIKE DESERT LIKE THAT NO WATER AT ALL. wa , but i still hungry sia i don't know why, so i buy big breakfast then I go home, eat, bathe, CANNOT SLEEP. but now I got this "SLEEP FEELING" already.
Talking to steffi nao, but sleeping in 5 minutes time. I think baby sleeping because he suddenly stopped replying. haha.

Steffi drew this for me. so cute, i like. hehehehehehehehehehe.
STEFFI WE MEET UP SOON OKAY, MANY THINGS TO TALK WITH YOU.. MANY THINGS LAUGH, MANY THINGS TO BITCH ABOUT :(

Goodnight!
& I miss my baby a lot! but he don't believe.
HEH.

15 April 2010

2010-04-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

HI WORLD
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, is boring . dead boring. I don't know why my classmates are weird. but i have to live with it for like 15 weeks....
God save me please.. ):

BTW, HI BABY. CAN YOU DON'T ALWAYS GO FISHING PLEASE. HEHEHEHE.
I WILL MISS YOU ONE LEY , FISH FISH FISH. WHAT'S SO NICE ABOUT THOSE FISHES.
SEE, I LIKE THE JUST MARRIED CAR. SO CUTE.
15 April 2010 !

I misssssssssssss Joshua Hay.
Goodnight.
I have to be stucked in class tomorrow im damn sad.

13 April 2010

2010-04-13T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hi earth!
I'm damn bored I think school is starting.. soon. I know my class already its E65E haha.
IF ANYONE SAME CLASS AS ME TELL ME (:
Today no photos, count yourselves lucky. I'm just going to do a short update then i'm off to sleep.
School starts on Thursday 15 april 2010. (stupid day you know i know you know why. school reopen is irritating enough still have add on, cb)
I'm sort of working last day at IRAS tomorrow, but should be helping out on Saturday/Sunday. then officially not working for them anymore ): I will miss everything okay, really.
Want to upgrade and fix my fucking lappy.. hmm. Nothing much ley. damn boring.
Who will be my new classmates!?

Im officially missing Joshua.Hay.Jia.Jun.
Hi Joshua i know you are reading this and don't ahm-chio to yourself heeheehehe.
See you on friday and take care of yourself till I see you ! if not you get it from me!
& Don't pretend to twit so irritating,
but i still love you ♥

Love like you've never been hurt before.

With lots of love,
S.

12 April 2010

2010-04-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

HI .. . . HI.
Nowadays i keep digging out old photos to post haha! Something beneficial for people who hate my piercings.
I slept once i step into my room! I was drenched as it was raining and I don't have an umbrella but I'M REALLY VERY TIRED TO BATHE OR DO ANYTHING ELSE then sleep already ):
So, I think i'm going to be sick very soon arghargharhaghhghghgh.
Saw a sunshower on the bus, kept me thinking for very long haha. Like something contradicting, its like even the sun who shines so brightly would cry (wtf) my cry means rain la ok. Like even if someone seems cheerful everyday, she might be bleeding inside. okay very emo I know but I was bored on the bus so please don't blame me ):

I miss that dumb fisherman.
haha!

Blue contact lenses last them leh, now i wear purple!
Okay might be meeting Steffi on Wed, heehee miss her a lot, I'm starting school in like 2 days.
I don't have the school mood, plus my retarded VPN doesnt let me login to my workspace to check my class fuck. How i go school on thurs? Can someone help me please. Schoolmates if you are nice i will be nice to you :/ come help me.

Goodnight im fucking tired, still.
Miss you heh.

With lots of love,
S.

11 April 2010

2010-04-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

HELLO. IM OFFICIALLY GOING BROKE.
I'M DAMN SAD. IF ALL MY FRIENDS DONATE $1 TO ME EACH I WILL BE FUCKING RICH.
HAHAHAAHAHAHA. okay that's a joke if you don't get it you lack sense of humour and you don't have a life. obviously.
Hmmmm! Today went town walked like fuck my legs DAMN tired because Peisun HAVE TO BUY SCHOOL SHOES her school starts tomorrow! (which is like later.. ) then! We walked like almost everywhere in the end she settled for a converse argh which is like can buy anywhere.
Dead tired and hungry ate hongkong cafe. then all charged to walk around. but all shops closed. stupid.

Oh hi this is my camwhore photo.

& I'M DAMN HAPPY TODAY LAOPO ONLINE! f.y.i chiwen went back to taiwan already if you STILL don't know hahahahaha. she's gone for like one year already, hai damn sad.
But! we webcammed, then i called her , the precious 25 minutes we talked non-stop sia to update each other about how we are doing ! then suddenly the line cut off nbcb.

Me and peisun took neoprint haha after dinner. (it've been longggg since i last took a neoprint)
This neoprint machine DAMN sickening, IT AUTO enlarges our eyes la! and look damn weird!! plus normally neoprint machines they will stop at a certain timing if no one is in the queue taking photos, but this one totally just count until zero no extra time for us to decorate!
& my hair colour super scary please I don't have such hair colour in real life ):

HAHAHA i put fake blusher use photoshop.

HAI DAMN SIAN!
Tommorow got work i'm supposed to wake up at 6am... but. I don't think i can..
Heehee.
Someone say he miss me like a lot. HEEHEE.
I also ley.
Goodnight Joshua
♥

With lots of love,
S.

10 April 2010

2010-04-11T02:23:00.003+08:00

Had work till 1am today, after that Chandel and I went to Juicy Couture, walked around. then she had to leave course she meeting her friend. then im left all alone! because that Joshua Hay Jia Jun leave house at 2:30pm when we supposed to MEET at 2:30pm, so i took my time went to forever21, spent again. then slowly make my way to dhobyghaut ; STILL very early so sit down there play the stupid ice cream game and i realised i still lose to Ahle he damn cb play my game all break my record.
Had Yoshinoya, then we catch a movie : Monga . about SECRET SOCIETY ONE LEY. but got some part very touching one i cry joshua laugh. as in, laugh at ME ): & i know he is going to laugh at me until the day i die. !#$%^&*^%$%^ hai!
Then went back Bishan meet Peisun, shopped MORE.. lagi worst. ate, go home.
DAMN TIRED LUCKILY TOMORROW IS SUNDAY.
I LOVE SUNDAYS.
DO YOU?

Backdated: 9 April 2010
This is my hair color! tadah. but the lighting a bit too strong ah. but roughly this is the ash brown color. hmm,my colleagues describe it as " ash , a little green, blonde, copper " haha.
Okay yesterdy went shoppping with Chandel , somerset313 damn tiring sia first time i walk until my leg cannot tahan.

Then after shopping at MANGO, the person say if we spend more than $100 then can go to their fashion show on 1st may, so we were given 2 invitations (:

Oh and i found this very old photo of me haha! okay quite old. when my hair color still dark and my face still smooth.. haha!

GOODNIGHT EARTH.
AND MY ♥ !

With lots of love,
S.

woopie doopie 8 april 2010

2010-04-09T01:44:00.002+08:00

HI ♥

Today i wake up Sunnie called me, so we went to Yishun.
I dye my hair. this photo is before i dye! Er the after effect I got time i take photo, but
COLOUR is very difficult to show on photo ley i very angry. but nevermind if get to see me will get to see my beautiful ashgrey brown hair.
Then she went to do facial, i trim eyebrows.
We eat. YONG TAU FOO VERY NICE! heeheeheee. then We went back to bishan to do full classic manicure and pedicure yay i feel like a queen today.
I come back i do facial my face very DOI-DOI now~ okay.
Then i talk to two joshua on msn same convo and i cannot make out who is who.
Damn it.
But my ♥ will come back to me, i know one okay (:

Goodnight
♥

get out of my head baby, you are too much for me to handle. but i like (:

Dreamy. -3april2010

2010-04-04T01:16:00.005+08:00

HELLO FINALLY I CAN UPDATE ALREADY! I was tired to update for the first two days. then later yesterday midnight i was trying to login to blogger than I WAS UNABLE TO! (sniff) but in the end when I am able, im tired to upload the photos. aha!
So today i finally have the time because i never go out and can sleep earlier, although now is 2am..... like tomorrow i can sleep in ?

3rd April 2010

Today is the last day of work for Priscilla ): haiya damn sad, i think she is bored of the job or something although she say its not haha! but still! I will not forget those stupid things that you said to me! Will missss you , alot! (: (f.y.i, pris is the most right one)

backdated:
2nd April 2010

Went out with bernard to get some stupid things that he wanted and, walked around....
We went cocoa treeeeees, bought the sour sour wormy sweet.. he bought some cheese biscuit stuffs but looks nice leh he never share with me nahbeh.

Giant hersheys!
Then we went to Cafe Cartel for dinnnnnnner we were damn hungry hungry hungry~

Chicken lagsana and my seafood macaroni , very nice (:

After dinner I got bored and took the bread paper to fold .. heart. haha! then that bernard nothing to do also so take my photo!

Give you ♥
Then i bought a DREAM CATCHER from marina square, i love dream catchers a lot!
Last time i tried to make one and now I don't know where it is already.. I bought dream catcher earrings and necklace as well teehee.
Catch all my bad dreams away!

(AND that sickening steffi actually lied to me when we webcam say that my door keep opening and closing when i went out to get something, make me scared like hell and she say the dream catcher can protect me. ta ma de, and what she got? my priceless face expression, go and die!)

Prettttttttty right!

1st April 2010
Out with colleagues again!
Marina square's Just Acia ( i think, i forgot the name of the place ) for dinner, then .....

HAHAHA linus doesn't know how to eat this! (Japanese pea)

He ate the WHOLE thing , after failing to chew he spit it out.
Then we didn't knew this until I started eating the pea, then Chandel asked me what is it.
Then we started the whole pea commotion, and damn shocking la! A lot of people don't know what is it + don't know how to eat! omg!

So we did a experiment and asked the others to try it.
Chunyue i forgot if he knew how to eat....
I only remember bernard did something really stupid, Daniel lied to him say this one have seed need to spit out, then he eat the pod and spit the pea out! ala we laughed like mad.

Pea commotion party.

We wore the same dress that day (:

Do you think Bernard looks like he is PHOTOSHOPPED into the photo?
We keep thinking he looked like! because he is of a different colour compared to both of us! haha!

A photo with Daniel , and no idea why my eyes are EVEN smaller than my usual kind of small, argh irritating.

And we went to Kiap kitties! so cute! (:

So! I am very tired I seldom type all the updates together in one post I've been typing for very long already so , im going to turn in soon! Yay!
Oh yeah i've already seperated my secondary school blogposts from my poly blogposts! haha!
I swear i laughed like mad when i read what I wrote when I was younger.... argh.

Goodnight!
With lotsa love,
S.

30march2010

2010-03-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hi darlings.

Generally on a happy mood.. i guess. Anyway, i had like so much rest today that tomorrow morning I will be running out of the house literally to go out and meet my friends & colleagues!
& Jason chan just added me on facebook and we wrote on each other's wall at the same time! haha damn coincidental! You have to read his '"About me" i swear its fucking funny.
I laughed like mad and looked super silly in front of the laptop. Okay,I don't know why I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THINGS when i'm bathing. & I ALWAYS DO. mygod. I think about very weird stuffs.. but today I thought about my job, my friends, those retarded bastards ( I mean each and every one of them) this meant i bathed for a long time... but! most importantly. I got this feeling of : So good if i can let them all go, and I shall do it now (: and I feel so unburdened after i came out haha.
Okay I don't know why am I typing all these, I'm catching Gossip girls and its so eggciting!
MDCT likes my maxi dress~

Oh and, i love candies.

So sweet.
I want to find a boyfriend that would go ice-skating with me, laugh at silly things, know what I'm angry about (when its damn childish) , sometimes do stupid things to make me laugh .... okay if i continue then it'll soon be a dinosaur. (they are extincted.)

Goodnight.

28march2010

2010-03-29T04:33:00.002+08:00

Hi earth.
Today is a hectic day. I felt so many emotions cramped together. esp. after that stupid thing that happened. and i found out that people are so fake. Stop pretending to care i really feel very disgusted. The more you try to maintain this relationship the more obvious it is to us that you want to use us for your own goal. I swear its damn obvious, we can 'see + feel' and now i even feel like giving you a slap for the 'touch' factor. please do some reflection.

Anyway i just realised that, a few guys who were important in my life last time, likes to occassionally come back and talk to me like a few sentence, tried to make you feel that they still remember you.. but their motive is to not let us forget them. omg.

but who cares. i went shopping with chandel at the 4-storey Forever21 at somerset313, stocked up lots of accessories, sundresses, and blouses.

One of the dress i bought! the vest is also from f21 but i bought it in m'sia the previous time i went over~

oh and this is my grades!

D+ maths nabuey hahahaha. cannot stand it! MATH SUCKS.

okay im tired its 4:44am now... argh what a timing.
sleep!

update update update

2010-03-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

Okay nothing much to update except i went back to work today.. that day went to play pool with them today they gave me the photos.. Today also we went toa payoh to play pool haha.

& yesterday that sickening asshole talked to me i want to explode already. if you tooo free go find other girls don't disturb me please. I already say get out of my life. and I really mean it.
Thanks. & bye. for the final time. idiot.

HAHA JASON IS MY SHI FU, HIS JUE ZHAO IS : SASHA YOU JUST WHACK ONLY. HIT THE HARDEST YOU CAN!
haha then if i miss he very positive one : O~ is okay sasha, ITS JUST A GAME~

haha. f.y.i this jason is not my ex bf that idiot. is my colleague (: He is very nice! except he always want to stereotype me with ah lianxyzzyxyzx.

I already re-sized my photos to a smaller size because many people complain so big so i make smaller bit okay! (:
I feel bad to go up to Eugene's place to find peisun when he is sick. blame me.
I tomorrow got work I go sleep already yay.
Miss me when I'm gone! TEEHEE.

With lotsa love,
S!

Relaxing evening with ber & peisun

2010-03-25T02:14:00.002+08:00

HELLO HUMANS THAT ARE READING MY BLOG POST! (:
Today had a fruitful evening, relaxing with bernard. and then met up with peisun at Eugene's place. haha. It was dinner and smoking sesssssssion.

I had super uber nice corn soup at MOS! ♥

Oh yeah and the waitress told me that I look like EURASIAN! hahahaha. mad happy but bernard gave me a stare and coughed 3 times.
Fine.......
& OOOOH i had a game with steffi JIGSAWWWWW EHEHEHE.
See, we put back our photo! (:

THAT LAO CHEEBYE IRRITATING DISTURB ME THEN ASK ME TO BLOCK AND DELETE HIM NB. YOU VERY FREE DON'T TALK TO ME WASTE MY BLOODY TIME SENDING ME SONG THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND. YOU REALLY. WASTE MY TIME AGAIN AND AGAIN. I SAY GET OUT OF MY LIFE WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND, UNDERSTAND?!

GO AWAY LISTEN UP I WILL NOT FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID.

Mad angry.
Nights.

ITSS A BORING OFF DAY TO COME

2010-03-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

I MISS STEFFI.

A lot ):

HAIYA, actually i'm not upset over him don't worry haha.
Its just sad that he has another victim. I'm going for a photoshoot this week for a competition by Harper's Bazaar.. hmm. Location Ion Orchard. okay im lazy to type more. Don't really want to blog today. haha. byebye

Ice skating skating skating ♥♥♥

2010-03-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

Went ice skating with my colleagues!

haha, when we were taking photo everybody was like say E for E-filing! the person who helped us to take photo gave a " these guys are weirdo " face. idiot. haha.

Yay we bought 12 ticketssss!

some photos a little bit blurry because SOMEHOW chandel's phone is ALWAYS shaky. haha!

MR JASPER!

My hellokitty savior. (you'll see)

HAHA my face a bit awkard because I can't stand properly haha!!

Yay!

See these guys! camwhore! yuckssss hehe

This is mr.jasper helping me KIAP the hellokitty! HEHEHEHEHE.

My twinnie and me, at burger king before we went kallang.

Okay my face look super big but ....
That's jasper and bernard!

Yisan (:

Ber is stupid.

Okay there are still some group photos i think with Linus or who. haha! But its really a fun time together with them! AND YUXUAN, JASPER THEY KNOW HOW TO SKATE THEY SO IRRITATING they skate so fast ):
And ber look DAMN FUNNY I SWEAR, HE IS LIKE WALKING ON HEELS AND HE WALKS NOT SKATE. HAHAHA HE MADE ME LAUGH AND I CAN'T SKATE WHEN its already bad that I don't know how. haha!!
But had a really greatttt time with them, with Laurel accompanying me to wait for the bus back home. thanks sweetie ♥

I will live better, without you. & im already doing it.

With lotsaaaaa love,
S!

Seconds, hours.

2010-03-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

To pretend not to see, and to fake a smile.

Hello , was lazy to blog yesterday. today got a bit of motivation to blog... tomorrow going for ice-skating with twinnie and colleagues, most probably la.
Today got more irritating callers (Why ah ?! fuckers) i very angry leh. got one call back THREEEEEEEE FUCKING TIMES TO ME WTH somemore worst thing is always kenna me why the others never kenna him?! nbcheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

This morning i tweeted the last time for someone i cared (:

tried to make it on a happy note, if you think im happy then I succeeded!

I can't hold him back for myself when he neeeeeeds so much freedom seriously.
So why make things hard for him as well as myself?! hehehehe. I should go to Heaven for this.

Today twinnie and i saw this hellokitty japaneseeeee pouch so cuteeeeeeeeeee!!

I'M SLEEPING NAO! HEHE.

On a light note : Ashley, hope everything will be fine for your court-case okay! hehe.

Baby, you should've seen this coming.

2010-03-16T23:05:00.005+08:00

Once the most perfect kiss in my life, you were also once the most important person in my life. but, it's not happening anymore. I cannot believe what I'm hearing & seeing anymore. I cannot decieve myself just like how you decieve yourself, you don't have it inside you.
Trust me you'll get it someday, because the girl you love will hurt you just as much as how you've hurt others. The stories I've heard about you totally just.. you made me think so much because I saw you online after so long... that you've been gone. I don't understand why you're doing this but, what I can say is. Just. remember.

DO NOT step into my life again because you've ruined it the previous time. and i mean it. totally.

I will be on my way to someone better, you have to trust me because you will see it soon ; with your very own eyes.

Hi everybody and sorry for this emo-sad-fuck-shit speech just before my supposingly-happy blogpost, erm i didn't go to work today but I feel so jumpy now to go to work! because staying at home is really not my thing.. ALTHOUGH i really had enough rest. And not to forget my amazing home-staying-day is accompanied with GossipGirl season2 haha! Had great fun lying on bed trying to finish it but still left 2 episodes to the 3rd season argh.
I shall watch it tomorrow after work hehe!
Steffi is at min's chalet (wtf) and I'm not sure when is she gonna go home (& sleep) her phone's low batt. Miss you baby.

P.s Chace is so hot ♥♥♥ hehehehehehehehe if there's really such a guy in singapore i swear i will........... most probably faint and can't do anything. (argh)

With lots and lots and lotssss of love,
(although this is what you took away from me, I still have unlimited amount of them)

S!

(Oh, & i saw this facebook page: "I hate it when you write someone a whole paragraph, and they reply ok" at first when i saw it i was like: hell yeah.
but later i thought about it, is "ok" that bad? When the people i've met in my life, THAT DON'T REPLY not even "ok" so if they reply "ok" which is perfectly irritating, I should even cherish that reply, because at least they reply.

You get it? fuck.)

♥

2010-03-15T22:27:00.009+08:00

Hello earthlings. This place is a horrendous place.

I had a nightmare yesterday night haha, i swear its the real nightmare that i have at night. not that someone gave me "a bad day" kind of nightmare. ERM, and today someone didn't want to speak to me on the phone and wanted me to give to someone of "a higher level" to talk to her. you go die la. i got your details you die HAAHAHAH. Sighs.

I was stalking around facebook, and saw things that made me vomit blood. argh.
Okay haha, I'm VERY TIRED I SWEAR and im not going work tomorrow i'm going to sleep in until 5pm haha.
Steffi baby called but i didn't pick up, now i call her back she never pick up. good.

& i got this friend on tagged he draw super cute things! His website is http://www.wantondoodle.com/ hehe, I want him help me draw on canvas pouches i swear its gonna be damn cute!

Thank the person who hurt you the most, because he is the one who made you stronger than before ♥

With lots of love,
S!

♥

2010-03-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

HELLO EARTH.

Today i went plaza sing, with mommy. hmmm... actually nothing much. haha argh. Tomorrow got work lei how ah. i lazy to work. :(

(:

Steffi baby so cute haha.

HAHA i miss her sia.
ok i lazy to type.

BYE.BYE hehehe

Boy, your lovin' is all i think about.

2010-03-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

♥

Watching mtv, boring why keep repeating teen mom & crap advertisements, and nobody will care about the OK KARAOKE thing... please. play some nice songs!
I love 21 guns version green-day feat american idiot musical cast. their voices so, touching!

Hehehe actually i was still brooding over "Today is a boring day", and i don't feel like leaving the house at night because im lazy to wear contact lens, im lazy to makeup . my eyes feel dry i feel terrible. but! I saw this erm, video on facebook.. last time i watch before k but this one seems to be the shorter version: Its about this angmoh guy he have no hands and no legs. and the part he was talking about he is angry to see girls having eating disorders ; people angry over things at home , angry over people. Made me think that we didn't cherish the happiness what we have.

We won't cherish until we lose it.... argh.

Okay haha today recieved a couples of irritating calls but.. none of them more irritating than ChunYue haha! he was pretending to be upset that i didn't want to talk to him super irritant.

And stop saying you'll direct calls to me i'll kill you.

I love my new headband haha. Steffi said it look like what dior's design , i bet she's crapping even if she's not she have up to 99.9% chance of saying the wrong brand.
I saw build-a-bear today so cute!! The wedding dress is so so so cute with the veil haha. was accompanying ber to shop, (i don't know who is he buying the bear for) && today i bought sushissssssss for lunch ber said i look like 刚刚被放出来 :( cb haha.

Tomorrow is a sunday!

What should i do?

HE HE HE HE HE EH.

Hi earthlings

2010-03-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

WHAT YOU WANT ):

steffi ah steffi.... :( tell me can? whether I'm doing the correct thing. i swear. if you scold me once and for all and say i'm stupid i really will wake up.
can?!

anw i love my hairband so cute.haha.

Si gerald want die is it say me dog again i kill you. Go ask the who suck your cock HAHAHA!! tmr good luck ah she come your house.. HAHAHA. and stop copying the conver and put on my fb you go away. " NA BEI " ( you know i know ah )
" OH NO! "
Ni qu si. haha

Okay la i very tired i want to sleep.

I don't know how to care for him when we talk. in. parts.

Goodnights.

please ask me what i want

2010-03-10T22:19:00.003+08:00

Okay I think there's malware in my laptop nb i very angry. today i very angry ):
Bad people spoil the my mood until very jia lat. ( thanks steffi b for the phonecall )
I want to go back school to install windows 7 so this malware will be gone. !#$%^#$%
I very no mood so i don't know what to blog anyway he won't care so why i type so much.
This morning i woke up and was

telling myself that i should quit running back to people who doesn't care . is that.... right?! argh.

Hahah but anyway i don't know how good or how bad this situation is.
Okay when you treat me good i didn't appreciate, now i want it back its not coming back.
but you told me all the evil stuffs that you will do and what kind of a person you are, then I was thinking so I was safe not to fall in love with you because I didn't fall stupidly into it.

BUT STILL NOW I WANT YOU TO BE AS GOOD even if i know you are like this, IRONY.

Don't know how to continue because I feel like. fuck.
haha bye

♥

2010-03-09T17:44:00.004+08:00

i very the miss the tian kong sia.

hoiyo.
hi i didn't go work today, yesterday chalet my eyes very pain :/ but heng si , winnie was not asleep and i can come home (: wo hen ai ni.
so uncomfortable yesterday ): ): ): ):

si weijie bring chivas all cannot stop drink muahaha. total in all xie xie izan, june and wj for drowning me with water and pei me go toilet and face my vomit. haha!
I VERY tired lei i sleep like not enough like that. then headache headache, and my pearl hairband i left it at the chalet i very sad.
but zy will help me keep. i hope she don't lose it. haiiiiiiiiiyooooooooo. tomorrow I will go work ! I MUST BE A HELPFUL STAFF HAHAHA. PLEASE CALL IN.

I WANT go and nap now can!
good-evening-night.

TEEHEE.
TIAN KONG YOU QUICKLY APPEAR. !!

With lots of love,

S!

Hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi byeby byebyeybeyb fuck

2010-03-06T18:40:00.004+08:00

Good the evening earthlings, it has been days since i blog because of useless and stupid stuffs that make me sad. but I'm back because I think i should be happy now i don't know what i'm talking about.
Oh hey if you think that my font is TOO small tell me k, because i just changed the skin so i didn't really edit anything.
Erm, and i like this skin. haha!

Many people ask what im working as.

I AM WORKING AS AN TAX OFFICER.
at IRAS revenue house (Novena) basically you won't see me wandering around because luckily I'm not being chose to stand at the taxpayer service centre. I'm at the helpline (:
But don't ask me what number is it because I also don't know, i don't call the helpline. I answer them. haha!
Training was three days but i tell you nobody felt that it was enough but fuck whatever we just chiong and answer calls like nobody business. it has been one week that we've been picking up the calls. Generally good. I think.

My school starts on April 15 IF I'M NOT WRONG because i really didn't check properly but that day is a bit weird because I think its a Thursday or what. Don't ask me. my school is always doing weird things.
Hehehehehhe.

Btw i was talking to sky yesterday but .. he just disappeared again. so.... haha. I don't know what to say.

& I am DAMN ANGRY WITH THIS ANOTHER PERSON I WANT TO KILL HIM.
He ZI DAO ZI YAN ( you know?! ) then make me like an idiot and he still scold me! He made up the whole thing and planned to get me to call him and then scolded me back in the end, what kind of person is it!! you so jian ):
don't disturb me anymore you jian ren. I'm very angry. totally.

Hi.

I miss steffi baby, A LOT.

came across this photo in my tumblr, This house is sooooo cute !!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
heart heart heart heartssssssssssssszyyzyxxyzzxyyyzyzxyz.

Next time i want make my house like that!!!!! HEHEHEHE.

GOODTHEBYE I VERY TIRED WANT TO SLEEP.

Oh baby baby baby oh noo like

2010-03-02T14:31:00.003+08:00

By Orianthi. (btw i love her name)

According to you
Im stupid
Im useless
I cant do anything right
According to you
Im difficult
hard to please
forever changing my mind
Im a mess in a dress
cant show up on time
even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you

But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
so baby tell what i got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not according to you

According to you
Im boring
Im moody
and you cant take me any place
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
Im the girl with the worst attention span
youre the boy who puts up with that
According to you, according to you

But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
so baby tell what i got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not
according to you

I need to feel appreciated
like Im not hated. oh no
Why cant you see me through his eyes?
Its too bad your making me decide.

But according to me
youre stupid
youre useless
you cant do anything right
But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
so babe i'll tell you what you've got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not
according to you
you you
according to you
you you

According to you
Im stupid
Im useless
I cant do anything right

This song will be the end. of me. and you. (:
Goodluck.

(you can take your time to bathe, no need to BATHE FASTER.........)
haha steffi read this!

Ah, I cannot believe i wasted my day for you. but that's just what i needed anyway.
I finally broke off all ties, i mean ALL. literally I don't want to see you hah it sounds fucking childish but people who know me will know that I like to stay as really good friends, because I feel that we know each other well, so .. ya.
But I don't think I even know him. at all.
& you don't know what he've done so shut up.

I'm going back to work tomorrow (:
Was listening to Justin Bieber Baby, omg he's so cute i swear. haha, but he is 2 years younger than me! argh.
Nevermind can i still love Chace now? haha!

Taxpayers can you all be nicer & sweeter when you call the helpline?

LOVE YOU GUYS WHO WERE AROUND YESTERDAY NIGHT YOU WILL BE EVERYTHING TO ME ♥

esp. mr ai ai HAHA

(....................)

2010-03-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

WHAT BATHE FASTER, !?
WHAT BATHE FASTER, WHY YOU SO BASTARD ONE I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I SO BLIND AND STUPID TO BELIEVE YOU THE THIRD TIME.
GIVE ME YOUR ALL.
WHERE.
WHERE!
NO MORE THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME I WILL BE SO STUPID.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK WO BEN DAO YAO SI.
I WAS STILL HAPPY TO END IT SINCE THINGS ARE LIKE THAT NOW AND SAY WE BE FRIENDS UNTIL I SEE THAT STUPID COMMENTS AND STATUS, WHICH IS LIKE WAY BEFORE I TYPED THE TEXT.
AND I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT FOR SUCH A LONG TIME ,
AND STILL THINK THAT YOU ARE JUST TIRED, AND BUSY.
(HAVING FUN)
fuck off, and please don't appear in my life again i swear. I don't want to see you.
AGAIN.

WASTED MY TEARS ON YOU.
so stupid

♥

2010-02-26T22:38:00.003+08:00

Today don't feel like posting photos, count yourself lucky no need see my face. haha!
Was listening to 梁文音: 哭過就好了 haiyo super nice, then i go see the mv, very gan dongxyzxyzxyzxyzxyzyzx one lei ( HAHAHA REMIND ME OF SKY ) then the storyline the girl say

" 我从来不说不，不是因为我愿意。是因为我爱你。

我从来不发脾气，不是因为我没有脾气。是因为我爱你

我从来不哭，不是因为我没有眼泪。是因为我爱你 "

Ala, mak, so sad la hor.
But very meaningful hehehehehehe.

Anyway im quite happy with my job (its too early to say) but, because today we started taking calls! from another hotline which we are not supposed to handle on monday.
Monday will be more difficult because many people will call in to ask for e-filing help because its FIRST MARCH PEOPLE CAN START FILING IN FOR INCOME TAX, i very scared i cannot handle. but through so much training..... I must have CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF HAHA!
Today i recieved approx.10 calls only 1 call the auntie very fierce, i will never forget her name but due to privacy oath sorry i cannot say hahahahahahhahaha
Because i am a tax officer. ( hehehehehehehehehe )

GOODNIGHT.

):

2010-02-24T22:38:00.002+08:00

IM SICK, SO I DON'T HAVE MOOD TO BLOG. SO I DON'T POST PHOTOS, CAUSE I'M SICK AND YOU WON'T WANT TO SEE MY SICK FACE, (EVEN IF YOU WANT I STILL DON'T WANT) SO ITS USELESS.

DIARRHOEA, FEVER, NAUSEOUS SHIT, HEADACHE, BONE ACHES (SERIOUSLY) AND I HOPE SOMEONE JUST KILL ME NOW. THANKS. I'LL PAY FOR MY OWN FUNERAL.

):

AND IM FUCKING SAD.

♥

2010-02-22T14:09:00.002+08:00

HELLO. im. freaking. bored. in. the. house. now. and, i'm. pretty. upset. with. things.
Anyway, i came upon this ... erm i don't know, not poem, but essay or ? I think many of you read this before! hehe, i only cropped the part that I liked. the whole thing its kind of crappy if you read them all......

_________________________________________________________________________________

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ..... kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

_________________________________________________________________________________

I don't like last sentence but nevermind its the last already so i just copied it hehe.
AIYA. i've packed my room like 1000 times already.. there's nothing i can do now omg...
and i can't re-decorate my room because i'm not allowed to throw away furni now as its the CNY PERIOD, (NB) so........ I'll wait patiently.

Oh yeah im starting work tomorrow!
(That time i was telling peisun about my job at the cafe, then we randomly chose a seat and was planning to order something, then. when we are going to write the table number i realised its 23. then still nevermind know. Tomorrow I starting my training, its 23rd. I' m supposed to go to 23rd floor to report.. ... And im born on the 23rd of dec. HI twenty-three, Nice to meet you. luckily I don't start work at 2.30 if not i will die of freakiness )

I think i will be doing e-filing and erm. some idk hahahhahaha tomorrow i'll blog about it at night!
My working hours until 5.30pm (:
& I'm happy about that.

see my love test :/

BYE. BYE.

♥

2010-02-20T01:35:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
Very long never blog already, steffi baby scolded me so .. hhaha.
HAIYO i talked to sky but he very fierce lei ): walao.
Today is daddy birthday went to 'Grandma's' (its a name of a restaurant) at United Square!
Hehehe, eat a delicious and fulfilling dinner(:
boring boring, ohhh i got a job at IRAS (revenue house) I think its something to do with income tax one! hehehe, think starting work on 23rd Tuesday 2010..
Hehehe
I think im seeing baby tomorrow..

hee.
Goodnight.

New year day 2!

2010-02-15T01:53:00.003+08:00

Actually i can wake up at anytime i want but I was forced to wake up as somehow people keep walking in and out of my room nb! so i woke up at 10:30am.. argh. so, I ate breakfast at sis's apartment then zuo bo, collect angbao then slept for like 30minutes in the afternoon.

Then, jingle ; yang + huiyan and patsy came over, then we drove to yang's house for a while, then went to Queensbay. Actually want to watch movie but in the end never watch.
Ate Oldtown, went to Dome and meet jingle's daddy who is my uncle hahaha, had some cooler.. then we head back to apartment, but the conversations in between were the best in this trip (:

Shopping at forever21 ( almost all the shops closed! but only forever21 opened haha!)

I bought the one jingle is wearing , peach knitted cap haha!

& got myself a knitted vest, so cute!! (:
Total for 104RM, which is roughly $50 hehehehe so cheapppp omggggg like sale for forever21 in singapore.

Okay im bloody tired its 2:05am now.

Anyway, Baby called me just now !!!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE talked a bit, his "hello baby" so cute ♥ i kept laughing and laughing because i was so happy, we texted till he slept.. Think he is very tired already, but i miss him so much (:
Love you,
i want to see you so muchhhh like NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW .

Where's steffi?! you better reply meeee! you haven't been replying since afternoon you want die is it HAHAHAHAH, miss you too!

GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY, IM VISITING MY GRANDMA AT SUNGEI PETANI TOMORROW EVENING HEHEHEHEHEHE.

New year day 1

2010-02-14T02:14:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOO TODAY IS MY FIRST DAY IN MALAYSIA, HEHE FOR NEW YEAR.

Was on the phone with steffi baby just now (: and i realised I should've bought prepaird 128 HAHAHAHAHAH so can talk longer! ):
And in the afternoon just realised bowen going china yesterday 6pm omg no chance to bid farewell but he's coming back in a week.
I'm staying at Stallion Apartment, and have a room for myself and my little niece.
Its like a flat actually, quite comfortable hehehehe. and best thing they have wireless network.

I miss you ♥

I'm going back on Tuesday(:
I will blog photos of tomorrow's bai nian situation HEHEHEHEHEHEHE
Stay tuned !!!!

GOOODNIGHT SO TIRED FUCKING TIRED I HAVENT SLEPT FOR EXACTLY 24 HOURS.

♥

2010-02-11T22:11:00.002+08:00

LYING ON THE BED TOO MUCH MAKES SOMEONE (love) SICK.
hahahaha, I took my specs and contact lens today so i won't have to worry about expired lens.
Teehee. My hair color so ugly now!!!! argh. I will dye them to a nicer color, i swear!!!!

Today the tian kong very blue (: hehehehehehehehehehheehehheeh
They say blue skies signify good mood ( actually is i say )

TEEHEE, MY EYES VEHLI PAIN WHY AH WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?

I will be going Malaysia on Sat I think, until like maybe Monday or Tues I will be back(:
Miss me guys hehe.

GOODNIGHT.
last ut tomorrow and im freeeeee.

♥

2010-02-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

Slow Goodbye by Lesley Roy

I can read the lines
On your face
And they're telling me
Everything I already know
Yeah

I hold you in my arms
But you're light-years away from me
Slowly sinking
Under alone
Yeah

So I act cool
On the outside
But it's eating me
Alive

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye

Sitting in the park after dark
Smoking cigarettes
Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all I ever wanted was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right but it's too late

I'm a hopeless case
On the inside
And it's eating me
Alive

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye

I die
A million times
Every time when you
Look me in the eye
And lie
Cause I've heard it all before
The same game
We go around and around
But I still end up with nothing
But hurting

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Yeah

There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
I can't take another
Slow goodbye